Complicated//Shawn Mendes// !COMPLETED! ✔️

Chapter 53

WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! WARNING!

This part contains some disturbing scenes.If you are triggered in any way with anything even slightly disturbing,PLEASE,skip this part!

''Why did you go there?Huh?'',I scream at his face.

''You lied to my face!'',I punch his chest,but he stays calm.

''You promised you won't do it anymore.You promised!'',tears start to form in my eyes.

''You promised..'',I sob.

''Arya..'',he finally says.

''Go! Go away'',I punch him one last time and turn around.

He does as told and walks away.

He started going to parties and getting drunk again.He started ditching school again.He started ditching me too.Last night he said he was with his mum,but guess what? Layla snaps me a picture of him on that one stupid party I refused to go.Drunk per usual.He lied to my face.I wonder what else has he done and ''forgot'' to tell me.

I sit down on the school parking lot and cry.I don't know what to do anymore.Since his father merged back to his life everything has started to go down the hill.Lies,secrets and more lies. I don't recognize him anymore.

I turn around and see a silhouette of him entering back the school.He just turned around and left.I never in my life heard a sorry from him.Do you remember through all shit I went because of him? Not a single sorry from him. Do you know that? Huh? It's like he has a pathological fear of saying sorry.

I sit on the cold,snowy ground.I hear the bell.Fuck it.I'm not coming to school today.Fuck it all.Fuck me.Fuck him.Fuck sorry.Fuck parties.Fuck lies.Fuck!

I stand up and start walking.Where? I don't know. My parents are in Toronto for the next few days,so I can't go and cry to them.Or maybe I shouldn't cry at all? Yeah,that's it.
I bite my inner cheeks and stop crying.

I walk into the nearby coffee shop.

''I'll have the blackest coffee you can make'',I say to the waiter who is looking at me like he has seen a ghost.

''Okay,but are you okay miss?'',he frowns.

''I'm fine'',I say and turn around to the window. I catch a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror.My eyes are insanely red and puffy.No wonder why waiter is looking at me like I'm a dead person.

I get my ''the blackest'' coffee and I stir it uninterested.I sit there staring out of the window for I don't even know how long.Finally I take a sip of my already cold coffee and go out. It is freezing outside.I might just as well go back to school.No,I won't.I head down the road to the nearest park.

It is all covered in white snow just like everything else here.I throw myself down in the snow and make those ''angels'' with my limbs. I continue laying down there as cold creeps into my body.God why does he need to be this complicated?

Dark slowly creeps up on the sky and I decide it's time to go home.Hot tea will make me feel much better now.I'm soaking wet from the snow and utterly cold.

(...)

Hot liquid makes me feel warm from the inside as I sit in my living room watching some stupid movie trying to have a pleasant time. There is nothing interesting in this movie whatsoever.I pick up my blanket and move upstairs. Might as well do my homework.My grades are anyways going down these couple of weeks when everything with Shawn started happening.I'm not letting go further ,so I get down to work immediately.

I completely lost a track of time doing my work.I tidy my desk as I've finished and take a look at my phone.Shit,it's almost midnight.I creep in my bed and fall asleep.