Love and Desire(#5)

Chapter 45

Chapter 45
Nadine


I don't know what's going on his mind pero bumalik si Kier at naupo sa tabi ko na may dalang bimpo. Pinupunasan niya ang mukha at braso ko pero hindi siya nagsasalita. Tahimik lang din ako at hindi ko alam kung may epekto ba ang ininom ko o wala dahil nagagawa ko pang tignan siya.


"This will help you a bit but if you can take a shower, it'll be better. Sleeping with that kind of smell isn't nice." He said as he gave me a look. I wanted to cry because our plan worked. Hindi ako iniwan ni Kier at heto siya, inaalagaan ako. Kahit konti lang ito ay may namuong pag-asa sa dibdib ko.

"And you shouldn't trust any guy. Paano na lang kung hindi matino ang nagdala sa'yo dito?" Sermon niya at kitang-kita ko ang pagkunot ng noo nito.


Parang 'yung dating Kier na naiinis kapag may nagawa akong kalokohan. And I can't help but to cry.

"I miss you so much." I whispered that made him stopped. He looked at me with a confused look then shook his head.

"I am not your boyfriend. I am Kier. Your friend's brother." Paglilinaw nito at tinuro pa ang sarili niya. Pinunasan ko naman ang luha ko at tumawa ng mahina.

Tangina. Hindi niya talaga ako naaalala.

"Ang bigat, Kier. Ang sakit." Hindi ko napigilang hindi sabihin rito. "Parang may sandamakmak na malalaking bato sa puso ko at mas bumibigat pa tuwing tinititigan mo ako." I cried. Tumigil ito sa pagpunas ng braso ko at huminga lang ng malalim.

"Ito 'yung iniiwasan ko noon pa. 'Yung magmukhang tanga sa harapan ng taong mahal mo. Wala pa lang exemption sa love. Pati 'yung mga brat na gaya ko na nakukuha lahat ng gusto. Kapag tinamaan na ni kupido, matututong maghintay at magmakaawa." I cried harder. Itinakip ko ang dalawang kamay ko sa mukha ko at umiyak.


"I miss you so much. I miss you so much, Kier. I miss you damn much." I sobbed then bowed my head. I sounded like a desperate woman who's begging for his man to stay but I don't give a fuck anymore. Hinawakan ni Kier ang pisngi ko pero agad ko itong tinapik at hinalikan siya sa kanyang labi.


I crawled to move closer to him then encircled my arms around his neck. Pilit niya akong inilalayo at umiiwas sa mga halik ko pero sinamantala ko ang pagkakataon at naupo sa hita nito.


"Nadine." He warned but I didn't stop. I kissed his neck as I moved my body against him. Narinig ko ang pagmura nito at sinubukan ulit akong ilayo pero hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at pinunta sa dibdib ko.


"This is wrong..." He whispered.

"And I don't even know what's right anymore." I answered then kissed him again. Napangiti ako ng maramdaman ko ang kamay niyang unti-unting pumipisil sa dibdib ko at ang labi niyang bumibigay sa mga halik ko.

"Nadine..."

Ilang mura ng pagtutol pa ang huling narinig ko bago niya tanggalin ang damit ko. The cool breeze immediately kissed my skin but his touch made my temperature hot. Pinatay ko rin sa isipan ko ang ideyang ginawa na rin nila ito ni Jillien at nagpaagos na lang sa init na nararamdaman namin para sa isa't isa.


I can feel his erected manhood against my sex as he cursed as I move. I ripped his polo out of his body as I saw him smiled mockingly.

"Damn." Mura ulit nito ng umalis ako sa hita niya. We're looking at each other's eyes as we removed our last clothes. I even help him removed his shorts.

I'm about to straddle him again when he pushed me to lay on the bed. Maingat siyang tumayo at pumwesto sa gitna ng mga paa ko.


He spread my legs wider. I stared at his eyes as he slowly entered his sword inside me.

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My eyes automatically opened as I heard the door clicked. Para akong naglakbay sa isang mahabang panaginip at may gumising sa'akin. Aninong isang lalaki ang una kong nakita.


"Morning sleepyhead." I heard him greeted. His voice sounds so familiar but I'm not even sure if I'm really awake now or just another dream from my dream. Lumapit ang lalaki sa'akin at hindi nga ako nagkamali, si Kier nga na nakabitbit pa ng tray.

"Hey." He called me again. I moved a little and I stiffened when I felt like my body's not wearing any piece of clothes.

Teka...

Pasimple kong kinapa ang sarili ko at agad nanlaki ang mga mata ko ng maramdaman ko ang lamig ng kamay ko. I lifted my gazes to Kier but he just looked at me casually.

"Damn." I cursed when I remember what happened last night. Nahihiya man ako ay tumingin ulit ako kay Kier para tignan kung nagsisisi ba siya o hindi.


"Eat this first then we'll talk." He told me as say on the edge of the bed. He helped me to get up as I covered my naked body using the comforter.

"I don't know if you want that crab soup but I'm hoping too." He added. Linagay niya ang tray sa hita ko kaya labis ang pagtataka ko siyang tinignan.

Hindi ba galit ito sa'akin?

Anong nangyari?

"You don't have to feel guilty for what happened. We both wanted it. There's nothing to worry." I told him right through his face. Napatigil naman ito at tumingin sa'akin pero hindi nagsalita.


"Says who?" He asked after I gave him a look.

"Bakit ang bait mo ngayon?" I asked him again. "Look? Hindi na ako virgin---"

"I know." He shrugged as he eyed me from my head to my chest. Hinigpitan ko naman ang hawak ko sa comforter.

He chuckled.

"You started it, remember?" He mocked. I frowned when he chuckled again but then his face changed into serious one. "I can't feel anything but my chest filled with happiness the moment I wake up and saw you sleeping next to me." He said softly. Napamaang naman ako at nagsimulang nangilid ang mga luha ko.

"What are you saying?" I asked. Nakaaalala na ba siya? Ako na ba ulit ang mahal niya?


"Is this bad? I have a girlfriend and I love her. But it feels really comfortable sharing my bed with you." I held my fist as I control myself from slapping him.


Bed, pangkama? Ako pangkama lang? Gago pala 'to eh!


"And it feels like I---we already did this before..." He whispered. "The bed, your touch. The heat. The rhythm..." He gestured his hand.


I sighed.


"Aside from being my sister's friend. Who are you?" He asked with full of curiosity. Napatingin lang sa mga mata niya habang tinatanggap ng sistema ko ang tanong niya.


"Kier..."