Love and Desire(#5)

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Nadine

"Eat up, broken hearted girls." I looked at Hiro with a blank expression of my face. He just grinned then pointed at the bowl of soup served in front of me.

I didn't say anything nor moved. I can hear Jenny's heavy breathing, who's just doing the same thing. We woke up with a bad feeling---dryness of our throat, weakness of our body. A total feeling of having hangover after being reckless hard drinker last night. God, this is awful.

"So what happened?" Mia asked me. Her hands were crossed over her chest. I just looked at her then shrugged. Jenny didn't say anything too.

My head is still hurting and I just want to sleep again and again. I can't talk like my energy goes down to its minimum level. Para akong binugbog. Marahil sa hindi wastong posisyon ko sa pagtulog. Gulong-gulo rin ang buhok namin ni Jenny na parang nagsabunutan kaming dalawa.

"I thought I was just going to pick up Jenny, pati pala ikaw ay nabaliw na rin." Seryosong sabi niya sa'akin. I tried to remember what happened last night. Huli kong matandaan ay nagsasayaw ako sa gitna ng dance floor ng may humablot sa'akin.

I can't remember her face but I guess she's Kiyana. Hindi naman pwedeng si Mia o kaya si Jenny dahil wala sila doon. At hindi nila ako dadalhin kung saan pa dahil pwede kaming pumasok sa mga kwarto ng bar.

I can remember her saying the exam papers...wait, exam papers?

It was like, comparing my papers to Kier's, right? May problema ba sa resulta? May hindi ba ako alam? May ginawa ba si Kier?

"Nadie, I'm asking you. What happened? Why did you let yourself drunk too much?" Bumalik ang paglalakbay ng isipan ko ng tapikin ni Mia ang balikat ko. Tinignan ko lang ito at napahinga ng malalim.

"I don't know." I answered. She just raised a brow to me. Anong gusto niyang sabihin ko? Naglasing ako dahil una, nagsisinungalin si Kier sa'akin? Pangalawa, nagkita kami ng kapatid niya at sinampal niya ako? Pangatlo, ipinatong niya lahat ng kasalanan sa'akin at hindi ko alam ang dahilan?

No way.

"Try harder." She rolled her eyes. Hindi na lang ako nagsalita at napatingin kay Jenny na nakatulala lang. Tumayo na ako at tinignan si Hiro at Mia.

"Her problem is much bigger than mine. It'll be the best if you talk to her and let me go home." I suggested then grabbed my keys. I didn't wait for their response and immediately stepped out at the bar.

"Bullshit." I cussed when I saw the time. It's already twelve in the afternoon. Ganoon ba kami kalasing ni Jenny at hindi namin namalayan ang oras? O ang init ng araw?

I started the engine then drive the way to our home. I just need to take a bath before I go to the president's main office. Hindi malinaw ang sinabi ng kapatid niya pero alam kong may kinalaman ito sa trabaho ko at kay Kier. Kailangan ko pa ring alamin. Mabuti na lang din at rest day ko pa rin hanggang ngayon. Ilang minuto lang ng nakarating na ako sa bahay. Our maids opened our gate when they heard my car's horn.

I stayed inside my car for a minute as I make my plans when my phone suddenly beeped. I reached it and I saw Nathania's calling me on Skype. I get off of my car and walk towards our house. Agad akong umakyat sa kwarto ko at tinaggal ang damit ko.

I put my phone on its holder then answered the call. Tili ang unang narinig ko kaya tumawa ako. Seems like this little missy missed me.

"Nathania, why did---"

"Nadie..."

"God damn it!" Hinablot ko ang isang notebook sa side table at agad ipinantakip sa katawan ko. Napaupo rin ako dahil sa gulat. Hindi ko magawang ituloy ang paghahanap ng damit ko at nakatingin lang kay Kier sa screen ng cellphone ko.

"Sexy Nadie baby..." He said huskily.

"Idiot." I moved to my side to he won't be able to see me. "Why are you using Nathania's account?" I asked him as soon as my body recovered. Isinuot ko na rin ang unang damit na nahawakan ko.

He sighed.

"Ayos ka lang ba? What did Kiyana do to you? And why are you drunk last night? God, I'm so worried. Hindi malapit ang Pilipinas diyan Nadie." Sunod-sunod na tanong nito na nagpabalik sa'akin sa reyalidad.

"She slapped me, hard." I told him. Pinilit kong basahin ang ekspresyon niya at nakita ko na hindi siya mapakali sa nangyari.

"Then what did you do? I mean, sinampal mo rin ba siya?" He asked worriedly. I can't tell if it's for me or for his sister but I guess it's for Kiyana.

I smiled sadly then shook my head slowly. Hindi kami nagsalita ng ilang segundo. Doon ko inipon ang lakas ng loob ko.

I cleared my throat. "She told me something too." I said. Tumingin lang ito sa'akin. "Hindi ka daw umuuwi na sa inyo." Sabi ko. Matagal siyang hindi sumagot pero unti-unti ring tumango.

"Why?"

"Because I can't." He exhaled. I can clearly see his adam's apple moving, like he doesn't want to talk but he should.

"I don't understand. Bakit ako nadamay?"

"Wala na akong mukhang ihaharap sa kanila, Nadie." He said. "My mom's mad at me, really really mad." He exhaled sharply. Kumunot ulit ang noo ko.

Anong kinalaman ko?

"So you're saying, that's really a problem between you and your family. May nagawa ba akong mali? Bakit ako nadamay, Kier? As far as I know, ginagawa ko lahat para wala akong maapakan na ibang tao." Dipensa ko sa sarili ko. Nagsimula ng umahon ang galit sa dibdib ko. Wala naman pala akong kasalanan e!

Nasampal pa ako! Wow ha, si Nadine Rodriguez, sinasampal lang? Napahilot ako sa sentido ko.

"Kung makita ko ulit 'yang kapatid mo, pasensya na ha? Hindi uso sa'akin ang masampal ng walang dahilan at mapagbintangan ng putanginang dahilan." I gritted my teeth.

He didn't say anything but he just stared at me.

"Nagagalit pala siya sa hindi tamang rason e! There is this word called ask! Yinakap ko pa siya kagabi dahil excited akong makakwentuhan ulit siya! Naglasing pa ako!" Humalukipkip ako at kinalma ang sarili ko.

Hindi pa rin ito nagsasalita.

"Ano? Wala kang komento sa ginawa ng kapatid mo? Actually, she's even talking about our exam results three years ago. Bakit? Nagsinungaling ka ba? Nakapasa ka ba talaga? Bakit ang dami---"

"I lied." He cut me off as my whole world stopped. "I...lied. I passed the exam, Nadie."

Kusang tumulo ang luha ko. Napatigil ako na parang mga mata ko lang ang buhay sa katawan ko.