▋BRING ME BACK

☤ thirteen | brian

here i am at the bar again.

the song 'no more sad songs' by little mix starts playing and i could relate so much.

i keep trying, nothing's working
i still wanna know, if you're alone
i keep trying, to put this behind me
i still wanna know, who's taking you home~

my heart starts to pang again. the colored lights shined everywhere across the dance floor. my body is starting to feel heavy. the same bartender that saw me when i was mumbling stuff about jae looked at me in the eye again.

"what's your problem?", i groaned.

"nothing."

"spit it out."

the boy nodded frantically.

"well i don't know if i'm right but i apologize if i'm wrong. when you talked about your friend jae, it sounds like he went missing."

"and?"

"i have a friend that went missing so i thought that the situation could probably relate."

"jae hasn't necessarily went missing. i know where he is but i can't get to him."

for tonight i'm going to get my mind off it
don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
stay out all night
go where the music is loud, so i don't have to think about it ~

"oh, well i'm sorry for barging into your situation", the boy bowed.

"how long has your friend been missing?"

"about 15 years."

"that's a long time."

"nobody has ever tried looking for him. i looked for him everywhere. he never told me he was leaving somewhere. i wanted to meet up with him at a little place we had and i waited, but he never came. i thought maybe he was sick. months started to pass and i realized he was gone."

the boy wiped his eyes before his tears fell and i felt bad for him. leaning over the counter i gently wiped his tears.

"it's okay man. i'm sure he's thinking of you too."

"i like to think that. but i wonder where he went. just vanishing out of nowhere..."

"that's unusual."

"people liked to bully him because his body was weak and all. i just hope nothing bad happened to him. his body is very fragile and he gets hurt easily."

"i find it rather amazing that you still think about him after 15 years."

"me too. but i liked him a lot so just seeing him go missing wasn't something i would like experiencing."

i'm begging please don't play
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
i'm begging please don't play~

"what's his name by the way?", i asked as placed my drink down.

no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
i'm begging please don't play, no more sad songs~

"wonpil. kim wonpil."

my eyes widened at the name.

"wait. can you repeat that?"

the boy repeated his name and i couldn't believe it.

"do you know where he is?", the boy asked with a worried face.

"i think i do."

dancing with danger, talking to strangers
don't care where i go, just can't be alone
they'll never know me, like you used to know me
no~

the air got more lively and then the place started to fill up.

"he's at the place where jae is at."

"what place? is it dangerous?"

"unfortunately it is a dangerous place-"

"what did they do to him?"

"can't really tell you so easily in the public."

the boy furrowed his eyebrows and sighed with a tint of sadness.

"he's not going to die right?"

"..."

"right? he'll be at least a bit safe."

"can't answer that."

"where is the place? i can go see him then."

i laughed.

"you can't. you'll die then."

the boy didn't smile nor frown.

"if you can meet him tell him that i'll come for him."

"what's your name?"

"yoon dowoon."

for tonight i'm going to get my mind off it
don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
stay out all night
go where the music is loud, so i don't have to think about it ~

"okay. but i can't promise anything because i can't do there myself. if I could i would've save jae a long time ago."

"it's fine. thank you so much. i'm just glad he hasn't completely vanished."

dowoon smiled at me as he offered me a free bottle but i denied.

i'm begging please don't play
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
i'm begging please don't play
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
i'm begging please don't play, no more sad songs~

"can you tell me more about the place? it's not like anybody's listening."

"i can if you can keep it a secret."

he nodded and i told him to lean in.

"heaven's hospital is the name of the place. it's where people are used as projects to go against monsters."

"monsters? people still have a conflict with them?"

"have you met one before?"

"no."

"would you be afraid and run away if i told you i was one?"

dowoon gave me a questioning look and shook his head.

"no i wouldn't. i never thought wrong of you guys."

"that's nice to hear. well that's all i can really say to summarize it. but they do shoot them and throw them into drawers. they basically are tests. they aren't treated like humans."

going home take the long way round
lights pass sit back with the windows down
i still got you on my mind
starting to realize, no matter what i do
i will only hurt myself, tryna hurt you
and if i turn the music loud, just to drown you out~

"i don't want to imagine it..."

"me neither."

i shook my head as i felt like crying. it's all my fault. why did i turn him in? if i didn't he wouldn't have to go under that pain anymore.

"i have to save him", dowoon cried as he covered his face with his hands.

soon enough i started crying.

"i'm sorry jae, it's all my fault. if i wasn't a stupid jerk and turned you in i wouldn't have been like this. i could be with you again. even if you don't forgive me i would still love you. i don't know what i was thinking. you did nothing wrong. you don't deserve that kind of pain. let me love you again. hug you and kiss. i want to talk to you. come home to me..."

no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
i'm begging please don't play
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
no more! sad songs
i'm begging please don't play, no more sad songs~

the song finished and i felt a pair of arms around me.

"it's okay brian. i forgive you."