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f o r t y - t h r e e

Harry

It's been a pretty unproductive day. After I finished my share of early morning crying for Niall I did after realizing this is reality and not just some bad nightmare.

I had hiccuped loudly pushing my face out of the pillow when Zayn had peeked inside the room. I had apologized profusely for ruining his pillow with my tears and snort, crying like a pathetic bitch that I am. He had been so generous shaking his head and taking the bedsheets and pillow for wash himself, refusing my help. All he had told me is that Niall  has taken the kids to hospital for a check up.

However much I wanted to be there, to go with him I can't and that's why I got up walking straight into the shower. Hoping all my pain gets washed away with the water and I cried some more in it. I never thought I would cry this much, would hurt this much but as I cried, as I let the tears and my emotions hit me full force realization slapped me like a karma bitch that I was in love with Niall.

That in this small period of time I have made Niall and his kids my whole world. Made Niall someone to look upto, put him on the pedestal he 100% deserved because if he wasn't a good parent, wasn't a good person with a big heart filled with love then he wouldn't have been so angry with me.

The ache in my heart had only increased as his face came to my mind, his beautiful laugh, those sparkling blue eyes that smiled at me, and teased me and most of his touch all over my skin. Closing my eyes I could feel his fingers trailing over me cupping my front leaving bites all over my torso. The way his tongue would will rope mine and pull into his mouth. I touched myself imagining him, touched the way only he would soft yet hard, caressing at the same time pumping with force, gentle yet tough at the same time and I came, warm wetness sliding down my thigh and spurting on the wall.

With warm cheeks I left the bathroom with towel wrapped around me. I quickly pulled on clothes laid down for me on the bed, probably by Zayn. The colour in my cheeks didn't fade as we had our breakfastt, knowing what I have done couple of minutes ago. Never have I ever touched myself like that, it was a thrilling feeling and it made me feel so good. Although, not as good as Niall.

I decided the only way to be calm and collected is to take my mind off him.

And so for the rest of the morning I busied myself around the house. It was after our breakfast and decided to start preparing for lunch, that I was washing the dishes that I heard a bell. Holding my breathe I listened intently. Sooner I realized it was not Niall as there was a girl's voice coming from the corridor. I released my breathe I didn't realized I was holding and went back to the chore in the hand.

I realized after few seconds it was Perrie. I slowly walked out and saw them whispering to each other. I quickly brought a wash cloth from the sink thinking that were doing the couple stuff and would want privacy although I didn't think it was the case.

As I entered and started cleaning the dining table I saw from the corner of my eye Perrie was looking at me, her eyes trained on me as she whispered something. They seemed to be arguing about something and anxiety took over me.

Maybe they don't want me here

Maybe they want some alone time

I quickly threw off my apron and cleaned my hands. I stepped out of tugging at my shirt. Zayn had got me jeans and shirt and it was bloody uncomfortable to wear. I watched as they would look at me for seconds before going back to whispering and I couldn't help but deflate.

I coughed gaining both of their attention and announced, my voice wavering a little as I looked anywhere put at them.

"Umm... I will leave now" is the only thing I could mumble out.

"What? Where would you go?" Zayn got up from his seat on the couch with Perrie following him.

"Um-I - I don't know. Probably at the diner I was working." I said thinking back that I was promised an opening whenever I would need it. And I definitely do now.

"But why Harry? I am sure Niall will come to his senses -" Perrie spoke and I cut her off shaking my head as I wiped my clampy hands down the side of my pants as I said

"I don't know about that. But I don't want to trouble you both. You need alone time -" before I could finish Zayn spoke, his eyes softening as he said his voice soft and warm.

"That's what you thought Harry? We don't need alone time..." I started shaking my head knowing they are only saying this from the kindness of their heart and I can't take advantage of that, not anymore.

"But you can't even speak properly when I am around. I know when I am not wanted, trust me Zayn you are not the first one that doesnt  want me." I spoke clearer and more strongly hoping they will understand and let me go as this all was making me uncomfortable and building up my anxiety more.

" It's - Harry, it's not like that at all" Zayn started only for Perrie to cut him off completely as she blurted, making Zayn and mine eyes widened both in shock.

"Niall is on this lunch date"

"Don't say date Perrie" Zayn replied irritated as he rubbed his forehead with his hand and I felt as if my heart just crushed into pieces.

Did I meant anything to him at all?

"Yeah, you're right it definitely didn't look like a date with that whore" Perrie said with so much hate that her accent was popping and I quickly knew this person with Niall was not someone Perrie liked at all.

"Wh-what are you guys talking about?" I stuttered, really having no clue and scared to even find out. And as Perrie answered me, I thought I shouldn't have even asked.

"Nikki is back Harry. That's what I was telling Zayn. I just, I didnt know how you would feel about that. That's why I.. We were...." she said unable to continue and I couldn't help but think they both thought I knew this Nikki woman, but I don't have a clue who the hell they are talking about. And unable to control I asked worriedly my brows furrowed  "Whose Nikki?"

"Nikki, Niall's wife. She is back and he is with her right now. And it doesn't look goo-" and with that I cut them off, my mind working a mile a minute. Wife?! Niall's wife! There was a urgent desire to puke and all I could do is shout, bewildered and heartbroken but more off shocked with this new piece of information.

"He has a wife?!"

Zayn looked completely taken aback and Perrie's face paled as she replied with a speed of lightening "Ex. Ex wife"

And with that everything went black.

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It's going to get more dramatic than this! I am so bloody excited. Thanks for reading and commenting. I loved reading all of your comments xx

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