Koda's Thoughts
"I’m tired and I’m lost
I don’t wanna be found
I put my heart and my soul
And strength in this now.."
These were the words that listened to while I was in the shower. It was my absolute favorite song by Sleeping With Sirens, "Who Are you Now". The way the guy's voice sounded was enough to give me chills. Even now as I stood under the really hot water.
I turned into the raining faucet to wash my face and rinse my hair. All of a sudden, hands wrapped around my waist. I jumped then turned to the person. I still couldn't see since there was water in my eyes, but now there hands were on my lower back. I couldn't see, however I could surely feel. The person was male, definitely male, and just as naked as I was. And stiff.
I wiped my eyes, trying to clear the water and make sure there was not soap when the guy started kissing my neck. I felt his teeth as he nibbled on the spot behind my ear. I immediately went weak in the knees. I don't even know who you are, but that feels so good... I thought. The guy kissed my neck and nibbled a little more as he pressed my lower back into him. Alright buddy, that kind of hurts. I said in my head as he stabbed my with "you know what". His nibbles went to my earlobe and on the section of my shoulder. I grabbed onto him as I let my jaw drop. He grinded smoothly into me, flexing his hips as he now sucked my skin. I groaned slightly then heard and felt the deep, throaty moan as it emitted from his mouth that bit and sucked my shoulder.
"Oh," I said. I teased his wetting hair and felt his back muscles. His flat palms on my back rocked me into his wanting flexes. I opened my hips a little wider.
"Oh, please. Who are you?" I asked. I moaned again despite myself and gently tugged their hair back to see their face.
I stared into the luscious brown eyes of
"Who am I? Oh baby I love it when you talk dirty to me." Andrew said. He sucked and bit my neck harder as he stiffened more. He really wanted me.
Having snapped out of my haze, I wasn't really feeling the vibes anymore, but Andrew was persisting on and on, trying his hardest (and I mean hardest, if you get me) to slip it in and take it.
"Andy, baby, I gotta get ready. I have work in an hour." I said, still holding him.
"Oh fuck baby. I wanna work you right now." He pressed into me so hard, making me groan.
"I know but..." I groaned again, feeling this weird mix of "eh, I don't want to" and "please, don't stop". The feelings of ecstacy were new to me, so it gave me this feeling of high and tingles all over the place. But what my moralistic side wanted was giving me this gut wrench.
"How's this?" He said. Without a moment's hesitation, he thrusted a finger in.
"Oh no.." I breathed. "No... Andrew"
It was so controlling, the feeling, but I knew I didn't want this. Not now, not here, not so fast and up-beat. I wanted things slow and sexy and filled with love not lust.
"Yes baby. Oh, feel you..."
"NO!" I yelled. It came across let confident then I wanted. It was like trying to have an awesome comeback to something somebody says, but you say something stupid so it falls through. Instead of getting him to actually quit, it sounded like I wanted more . And he gave it.
"Fuck, Andrew." I cried nearly. I leaned my head onto his shoulder, shaking my head. I just didn't want this
but I don't think I wanted to loose Andrew just yet.
