Safe

Chapter 14

Kara

I take a deep breath in as my eyes flicker open.

"What did you think you were doing?" Alex.

"You know you can never go back to being Kara Danvers since you just killed her." I can tell she's angry.

"Yes Alex I know. I should never have tried to be a human in the first place."

"Kara are you kidding me why would you do that?"

"Because there's no point in being Kara Danvers. Mon-El made me feel more normal. Human. But now I don't know how I could have continued a normal life without him. I'm better off being supergirl. I have to be. This way I can help more people."

"Kara you helped people with your normal human life. Look at the friendships you made. You helped Cat realise its not all about media. You opened peoples eyes by being the sweet optimistic Kara Danvers who everyone loves and trusts." I don't know what else to say.

"Kara I've supported you in everything you do but this? This is too far. You have to make it right. We'll make up a story that you recovered."

"Alex." I interrupt her. "I can't have everything. I tried. I tried to be human and supergirl, have a job a love, friends I love and Mon-El. But look how that ended." This is so painful to say. Its like someone's stabbing knives into chest. But its the harsh reality. "Alex I can't balance everything. I need to focus on one part at a time." She's taking this worse than I thought she would.

"Kara this is not something you can just play with. You can't chop and change. You have to work out how to balance everything. You can't just go out and make people think your dead. Your not. I'm going to tell the hospital your fine."

"Alex that's exactly what I don't  need. Please at least hold off telling them until I've decided what to do."

"What you need to do is have a break from supergirl. Your too obsessed with burying your feelings in your work. Supergirl is what you can do. Kara Danvers is who you are."

"Alex" I tried to interrupt her.

"No Kara. You need to do this for your own sake. You can't see the benefits of it now but you will. If you dont do it for yourself do it for Mon-El. What do u think he would say if he knew what you were doing?"

"Okay." I can't argue anymore and shes right. I have to fight my battles and if that's dealing with being just Kara for a while then so be it. I have to come to terms with my emotions and what's happened. I can still be supergirl but tone it down a bit. Not bury my emotions as Alex says.

"Hey Kara." I look at her. " You still have me. You'll always have me." With that she walks out the room leaving me in silence.

Mon-El

I leap over a two makeshift building and two canyons.

"Better. Again." Arden tells me. I do it three more times before slowing down to see what she has to say.

"I think that was pretty good." I say sarcasticly and nodding. I really don't believe myself.

"It was okay. Go again this time really feel what your doing. Think of something good and let yourself glide through the air." Arden's inspirational talks so far have actually been pretty...inspiring. I go again and she claps.

"Well done Daxamite! It looked like you were flying." The thought of flying reminded me of Kara and suddenly the mood around us dropped dramatically.

"Hey Mon-El you okay?" She says as softly as she can.

"Yeah I'm good lets move on" we walk to my next set of challenges. My mind constantly thinking of Kara.

Alex

Maggie runs up to me in the hallway her arms gavering me in.

"Hey, I heard what happened. did you sort it out with the hospital?"

"Yeah" I break down crying. "Maggie I
dont know what to do. Karas given up and I dont know whether I should too or if I should keep pushing her to do what's right all the time. I dont know. Should I just let her make her own choices?"

"As long as your helping and supporting her I'm not sure there's not alot more u can do. I Think being there for her like you are will help her make the right decisions."

"Yeah. Your always right Sawyer."

"Aww you can sometimes be as good as me Danvers." I look at her with a disapproving pout to wind her up.

"Do you want me to stay?"

"No its okay. I'm sure there's some crimal that needs busting out there." I say. We both laugh.

"Okay." She says and kisses me quickly before walking back down the hall.

Kara

Alex walks back in looking very perky.

"Hey! what's with you looking all smug?" I could tell she's seen Maggie. Its written all over her smiley face.

"I just spoke to Maggie" I knew it.

"Right come on Kara let a get you home." She says trying to cheer me up.

"That I will not refuse." I say jumping off the bed.

Mon-El

All I can think about is Kara. I haven't listened to a word Ardens said to me all afternoon.

"Okay?"

"What?" I have absolutely no idea what she's on about.

"Do you understand the test?"

"Arden I need to take the rest of the day off. I'm really sorry I can't...I" I Turn around and run towards my Living quarters. I lie on my bed and all these thoughts flood my head. Where's Kara? How is she? Is she getting on with her life? Has she moved on? My eyes tear up as I think about her. A part of me wants her to move on because I can't stand her being upset especially because I know she'd be upset over me and I don't want her to be. I would never hurt her on purpose. I love her. God I love her. I'd give anything to be able to tell her one last time. But i can't. And thats okay. I just want her to be happy.