Just a Memory.

Chapter 3

When I reached the small wooden rectangle table right by the window Louis had picked out, Liam pulled out my seat that was across Louis and sat next to me, across Zayn. I rest my elbows on the table and put my chin in my hands and smiled at Louis, letting him know I'm ready for questions from my curious cat.

"So Kacie Michelle Thompson, how are you?" Louis asked.

"I'm good, thank you for asking. how are you?"

"Content, what part of America are you living in?"

"Em, California."

"LA? Like you and Harry talked about?" Zayn asked.

"No, um, it's really expensive so I couldn't." I semi lied, Liam caught my eyes knowing I was lying.

"How have you been dealing since Harry's passing?" Zayn bluntly asked, wincing in pain and gave Liam a glare.

"You don't have to answer than if you don't want to Kac. I know you don't like talking about it." Liam said rushing to my side mentally and emotionally.

" No it's fine, I only talk about this for this week only. I won't talk about it again until this time next year. It's best for me this way. To answer your question Zayn, I've been dealing. It's been 4 years since the passing, I miss him more and more everyday. I miss him terribly. I've been seeing a therapist for 2 1/2 years now. My friend, Haiden, suggested him to me. Haiden has been helping me too. He's been the best solid support, apart from you all, yet. He's been I my shoes before only with his mom when he was 14. He told me it's kinda normal for this to happen. It took him years to get over it. He still has his moment here and there but not as bad as they use to be." I told them all.

"Oh? Who's Haiden?" Zayn asked.

"Haiden is my friend back at home. He grew up in the heart of Chicago, moved out to California after graduated high school at age 17. He's going to a photography college. he's really talented. We just celebrated his 23rd birthday last week actually. We meet in the staircase at the apartment complex my 1st year living there. He thought he could carry his groceries without dropping them. He failed, epically of course. Since then we've been attracted to the hip, basically. He's a sweetheart really. The most kindest, honest, loving American man I've been so far. I think you guys would love him!" I smiled at the thought of Haiden. His crazy black hair and hazel eyes coming to my mind and his smile and contagious laugh. I caught myself giggling to myself.

"Kacie has a boyfriend!!" Louis gushed. I laughed at him. "And what's so funny Mrs. I-have-a-boyfriend-and-didn't-say-anything?"

"Nothing! Just that Tristan, Haiden's boyfriend, would have given you the craziest look and would have kissed him right in front of you to prove my point." I giggled at them. Louis' face turned red from embarrassment as they all have each other the look of 'oh he's the gay best friend'. "Plus I couldn't do that to Harry. I haven't officially moved on, I guess you could say."

"You've never kissed or been with any one else? At all?" Liam asked.

"No, I can't find myself to be interested with anyone else but Harry. I would feel like I'm betraying him some how." I confessed. They all shared the same confused look.

"What do you mean betraying him?" Liam asked.

"Nothing, just that, I guess, it feels that's he's always with me and it would upset him some how." I told them.

"But how Kacie? I don't get it." Zayns asked, again.

"Again, like I said I feel that Harry has not left my side and I can't hurt him like that!" I snapped at him.