Just a Memory.

Chapter 5

"Oh my gosh mum! You should have seen it! Honestly the funniest thing I have ever seen happen to Harry and Louis today at school!" I laughed on about with my mum.
"Oh honey, I'm sure it was quite funny! Those boys really know how to make my girl laugh." My mum smiled at me across the living room. She was dusting off some stuff before dad got home from work. She moved the curtains open to get the sunset in the line if sight when we all sat down for dinner later. Suddenly it got dark.
"Mum? Mum where are you?" I asked as the setting changed to darkness, unsure what was happening. "Mum!?" I yelled again. Green grass at the bottom of my feet. I stared in confusion. Wondering when I got outside to begin with, I was just inside with my mum waiting for my dad to come home. I looked up and saw 2 stones in front of me.

Here lays a loving Mother, Daughter, Sister: Scarlett Rose Thompson.

Here lays a loving Father, Son, Brother: Andrew Michael Thompson.

"No no no no!" I cried as I sunk to my knees in front of my parents gravestones. I cried for what seemed like hours. I felt something on my shoulder, and I looked up to see who or what it was that was touching me. The light was blinding, all I could see was a silhouette of someone. Unsure of the gender, who it was, or anything. All I could gather was that the figure had curly hair. The figure didn't speak to me. Didn't do anything but keep their hand on my shoulder as a way of reassurance of everything was going to be ok. I felt a wave of safety and love come from this curly haired figure. I felt calm. Each time I sobbed some way, the hand squeezed tighter reminding me that they're there.
My parents grave was slowing disappearing in front of my eyes. Along with the light surrounding me. Silence took over, darkness felt to familiar to me. The blinding light becoming dimmer and dimmer. The hand becoming looser and looser. I turned around to find the hand of reassurance was gone. Just like everything else that I deeply cared for. I was alone, once again. "Anchor?! Where are you?" I yelled for the figure. Anchor, it seems perfect for the unknown figure. Always keeping me grounded, when I wanted to just let loose and give up. Silence again. Darkness taking over everything around me.
"Anchor? Where are you?" I called out again , getting scared. Unknown things were touching me causing me to screech and jump. From a distance, I saw a spotlight. I bolted for the light. Hoping it was my anchor. Hoping I found my safety again. I reached the light and saw the silhouette I saw not to long ago. I recognized the curly hair, knowing it was my anchor. They were on the ground, sprawled out. "Anchor?" I said in a shaky voice, reaching out to touch them. When my hand reached the figure and as I pulled back I saw that my hand was covered in blood. I screamed as loud as I could.

I woke up sweating and breathing heavily. I looked over to the alarm clock next to me. 6:43pm it said.
"I've been asleep all day.." I said to my self. I got out of the unknown bed, and waked over to the mirror hanging on the wall. I examined my puffy face and bed head hair. I tried to fix my hair by failed, so I gathered it all together and put it into a pony tail. I rubbed off any make up that was smeared to make myself look at least presentable at whose ever flat I'm at. I heard loud noises coming from, what I guessed was, the main room. I took a second glance at my reflection. I opened the door and walked down the hall. When I got to the main room I leaned up against the wall to find Louis sitting in the ground clenching his stomach and laughing to the point of tears. Liam on the couch laughing loudly. Zayn running to the kitchen to get something then coming back with paper towels. He handed them to the blond boy whose back was to me.
"It isn't funny guys!! You could have told me the tea was there or that something was there!" said the boy with an Irish accent. That sent Louis into another laughing fit.
"Oh babe, it's alright." Zayn said hugging the Irish boy. Zayn locked eyes with me and smiled to me. I smiled back and giggled a little bit.
"Ok that's a new sound I don't know." said the boy. He turned around and faced me. "Kacie?! You're here!" Niall said running to me and attacking me with a big hug.
"Yeah, hi Niall. I miss you!" I said laughing. Niall stopped hugging me and turned around to face the rest of the boys.
"Hold on! Kacie's here and none of you told me?!" he nearly yelled.
"I'm sorry?" Zayn shrugged.
"I'm sorry my butt Zayn!"
Zayn walked up to Niall and wrapped his arms around his waist and kissed his cheek.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you she was here. It wasn't planned for her to be at the flat tonight. There were some problems." He explained to Niall. Niall returned the hug and kiss.
"It's ok babe, it's fine really."
"Whoa whoa whoa. Hold up, when did this happen?!" I asked looking at the couple in front of me.
"This? oh um about a year ago." Louis answered pointing at the 2 boys. I walked towards the group of couches and leaned against the one Liam was sitting on.
"So what's the plan boys?" I asked. They all looked at me weird. "What?" I asked.
"N-nothing, it's just. Well you've been asleep almost all day..." Louis said in a quiet voice. I felt Liams eyes on me. I looked over to him and motioned him to go to the kitchen with my eyes. He understood and got up from his seat and walked over to the kitchen.
"I'll be right back, kinda hungry." I told them walking towards the kitchen. When I got in there, I found Liam leaning against the island in the middle of the kitchen. I walked past him to go to the fridge. I opened it then closed it. Nothing there, oh well. I looked back at Liam. He stood there head down, arms crossed and thinking. I walked up to be in front of him. I poked his chest and got no response. I poked him arm, again nothing. I poked his cheek and still nothing.
"Liiiiiam?" I asked him in a child's voice, getting closer to his body.
"Liiiiiiaaaam?" I asked again. Still nothing. I uncrossed his arms and placed myself in the empty space, and placed his arms around me, the best I could. He tightened his grip on me at this movement, and nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck. I noticed his shoulders were shaking a little bit. He was crying. Why? I placed my right arm around his neck and my left on his back. I softly ran my finger nails through his hair.
"Liam I'm so sorry for causing this much pain. I didn't mean today to be like this. I shouldn't have come back and I'm sorry," I told him quietly. "I don't want you to feel responsible for my pain. It's my pain not yours." I finished. His grip on me tighten and pulled away a little bit. I looked up at him to see his sad, concerned, puffy brown eyes pouring into my happiness drained, pained blue ones.
"I'm alright, really." he said to me. I slapped him softly on his arm.
"Liam you know how I feel about people lying to me." I told him.
"You didn't have to hit me." he relied with a smirk on his face. Happiness is for him. It's his life, unlike me. Someone who deserves all this sadness and pain. He lifted my head up higher so I was looking at him perfectly.
"Don't shut me out Liam. I can't handle that." I whispered.
"Only if you don't Kac." He replied. I tried to look away, knowing I have secrets he doesn't know. That no one knows. He doesn't need to know my secrets. He'll be concerned for me 24/7 and I don't want that. "Kacie. You're doing it again." He inturuped.
"Sorry. I didn't mean too."
"Kinda like how you didn't tell me you've started to self harm again?" he questioned know he's walking on thin ice.

Crack.

I looked up at him quickly.
"Excuse me?"
"Before you freak out, let me explain. When I was putting you to bed earlier, your right sleeve moved up as you moved your arm and I saw the old and new." He said placing his hand on my forearm. I pulled my arm out of his grip. I felt like shrinking into a mouse and running away, far away, from this exact spot. He knows. He knows my secret.
"Kac, hon, you're shutting me out again." He said to me, pulling me out if my mind. "It's ok Kacie, I'm not mad or anything. I just want to be here for you. Louis and Zayn-"
Louis and Zayn? Louis and Zayn! You told them too?! Who else are you planning in telling? Your parents?" I interrupted, almost yelling. Anger flowing through my veins. He tried to hug me to calm me down, but I took a step back.
"Kacie please. We just-"
"No Liam! You told people instead if talking to me first. Asleep or not! you should have waited! You don't have the right to do that!" I yelled at him, still walking backwards finding myself at the other counter.
"What's going in here?" Niall asked walking in holding Zayns hand.
"Zayn knows! Why don't you ask him!" I yelled, Niall flinched at the change of tone, Zayn looking guilty and innocent at the same time. It was silent now. Liam tried to get a hold of me.
"No! Don't touch me!" I screamed back at him heading out of the kitchen.
"Whoa there sweets! What's wrong?" Louis asked me getting off the couch, as I enter the main room.
"Like you don't know!" I yelled at him putting on my shoes. I don't remember taking them off. Liam must have took them off after putting me in bed. After my sleeve showed off my scars. After Liam told everyone about my secret. My mind continued with these thought. New anger being released into my blood again, fueling the old anger. I went to grab the door when someone grabbed my wrist and turned me around. My eyes matched with ones of worry and fear, only difference was that they were hazel.
"Kacie, where are you going?" Zayn asked me. his eyes becoming glossy.
"I don't know right now. I'm sorry Zayn but I can't right now. I'll text you when I'm safe. Bye." I said opening the door and slamming it shut. I ran down the stairs and ran outside. I walked down the street unsure where I was going to go. Then it clicked. My body took me to the 2nd most safest place and person I could ever think of and know.
Anne Styles.

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A/N: So there it is! Chapter 5! what do you guys think? Thank you guy so much for the votes and reads! seriously it means a lot! That dream was kind if intense yeah? Yes, Ziall is a thing in this story. I told my friend and she nearly cried of happiness haha. Yes, Zayn is bi in this story. Sorry if you don't like it.. But it's not going to take over the story. It's about Kacie and Harry.
Do any if you guys think Liam and Kacie should date? Should Lacie be a thing? Let me know in the comments on your thoughts!!! Sorry the a/n is so long.. Bye, I'll talk to you all later love you lots!! <33