The King's Storm [Bellamy Blake]

33: The First Time

I awoke and Octavia was still lying in bed with me, her finger gently tracing along my arms. "You always were so muscular... I was so jealous as a child" she whispered, making me laugh lightly. "how are you doing? Other than you know... forever destroyed?" I rolled my eyes and leant up beside her.

"Okay, I was the day after it happened. Straight back to training. I told Bellamy when we trained, when I was raised, I wasn't raised a human child, I was raised the assassin. Felling's were something I could develop... but they weren't allowed to affect me negatively. They didn't even want me to love your brother. They wanted me to remain cold and unattached, just have children with him and pretend" She scowled slightly before shaking her head.

"How could they be so cruel?" she asked quietly and I sat up, changing into a clean shirt before turning back to her.

"I was an orphan, who did I have to stand up for me" I explained and then turned to the door. "I'm going to get breakfast, you coming?" I asked, before walking out, not giving Octavia a chance to reply. I felt everyone's eyes on me as I walked out, Bellamy smiled and waved a little before looking to his sister who had decided to follow me out. Suddenly he walked over and I felt Octavia grab my hand tightly.

"are you sleeping with my sister now?" he laughed, "damn, that's hurtful" he chuckled, I looked away and he stopped laughing. "Lib?" Suddenly I head a thud and then a groan, I turned to see Octavia holding her fist and Bellamy staring at his sister, his hand over his jaw. "O?" He asked, shocked.

"Bellamy Blake, don't you dare act as if last night didn't happen. You're an ass and you should never have done that" She shouted, and everyone fell silent. "And as for me, I'm sleeping with Lincoln if you must know, and I'm sure Lib will be boning Murphy soon enough. So suck on a dick Bellamy" She stormed off and I just stared at her, jaw slack.

"Go on Tavy" I muttered before turning to walk to the fire pit.

"Lib?" Bellamy asked quietly, I turned to him, not meeting his eyes. "What did I do... tell me I didn't hit you again" he begged and I laughed, painfully.

"I wish you had, but no" I sighed, finally meeting his pleading yet fearful eyes. "everyone knows Bellamy... you told them all. To get back at me, and for what? For being honest about raven?" He shook his head, tears brimming in his eyes. "And as to you telling them I murdered him... how could you?" my voice broke and he gasped, tears beginning to fall. "You might have been the one to bring me out of the breakdown I had, but you're also the one that put me there... Octavia is right Bellamy, until we both rediscover who we are, we can't get on. We're toxic for one another..." he shook his head, eyes pleading.

"Lib..." he begged, taking my hand in his. "Please don't"

"Bellamy we need to just stop this... whatever it is... I need to work on everything, from understanding emotion to getting over what happened... and you need to learn to be a decent human being" he let go, tears falling faster and harder. "but until that day, I can't forgive you again... I don't even know you Bellamy"

I walked towards the fire pit and saw a tired looking John eating by himself. I sat down beside him and he handed me half of his food, smiling weakly. "Thank you" I whispered, he nodded gently and I took his hand in mine. "I'm not fragile" I whispered and he looked to me, confused.

"I never thought you were, you're the storm. The strongest woman ever" he smiled, pressing a hesitant kiss on my cheek

"I cut him out" John frowned and I sighed. "Me and Octavia were talking, Bellamy and I don't know who we are anymore, and we can't figure that out with all of this going on. I don't know who he is anymore, but he isn't the boy I fell in love with, and after what he did... I don't know if I'll be able to forgive him this time" John nodded and wrapped an arm around me, pulling me close.