Sometimes we feel like we got life all planned out. We plan for the future but fail to live in the present.
Everything seems perfect to the public eye but behind close doors it's the complete opposite. Heaven becomes Hell but we have no choice but...
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I looked at the clock and seen that I needed 10 more minutes to be able to clock out. It was Thursday which meant a lot of people got paid so it was hella busy.
It was 10:20p.m which was the time the rush usually came. Thank god I wouldn't have to deal with it tonight.
During the week I worked from 5-10:30 and weekends if I didn't have a game scheduled I worked 3-12 in the morning. I hated the times but I needed to get some type of money in my pocket if I wanted to be able to help moms out and keep nice clothes on me.
"Welcome to Jack's how can I help you?" I asked the old couple in front of me
"Yeah let me get the number 5 with extra mayo and the number 7 with no tomato"
"Is that it?" I asked them to make sure that completed their order
"Yeah that's all"
"You're total is $11.50"
The old man handed me the money and I quickly gave him his change and his food.
I grabbed my drawer going in the back and counting it up before clocking out.
"Good job today" My boss Mr.Marco told me
"Thanks"
I finished up and ran to the front to clock out. I said bye to everyone before walking onto the cold Harlem streets. I lived a good 3 blocks from here so it would take me a good 20 minutes to get home. unless I ran but I was too tired to do all that.
As I walked home I looked around like I do every night. Nothing but deals being made. Crackheads doing their nightly fix and hoes on the corner waiting for their fuck of the night to pull up.
I never understood what made people turn to the streets. Like a lot of these niggas and females are around my age but will never catch them on school grounds. Niggas stay in the crib smoking during the day and selling what they got left during the night. The girls got their backs blown out all day and night. Only difference was that during the day they was fucking their pimp and during the night they fucked the nigga willing to pay the most cash for some pussy.
I ain't know niggas was that desperate for some pussy that they'll blow up to 3Gs for it. And some even had a bitch at home.
"Dave my boy" I heard my homie Jungle call from behind me
I stopped walking and turned around dapping him
"Wassup nigga. What you on?" I asked as we started up walking again
"Shit boolin just sold the last of my shit tonight. I got a blunt left tryna smoke it with me?" He asked pulling out the dutch
"Hell yeah nigga"
He lit the blunt taking a hit before passing it to me. With all the stress a nigga had this was well needed.
My OG hated me smoking so I tried my best to hide shit from her. I also had to be careful cause my coaches be testing us randomly and I can't get kicked off the team. Basketball is the only hope I have of making it out if the slums.
After 10 more minutes we pulled up to my crib. I lived in a small house 3 bedrooms 1 bathroom. My older brother fixed up the basement so that him and his son could live down there. Me and my younger brother shared a room while my older and younger sister shared one as well
"Ight this my stop. I'll get with you tomorrow" I dapped him up before going inside
"Damn nigga took yo ass forever to get home" My older brother Jerome said as I entered the house
"I got caught up with Jungle" I said as I headed towards my room
"Moms ain't home so you don't gotta worry about her smelling that bud on you" He yelled after me
I went in my room grabbed my night clothes before heading to the bathroom. I needed to get a good night sleep so I could be on my A game tomorrow at practice. There was a scout showing up so I had to give it my all
After my shower I got in bed and watched some tv until a nigga was out.
DESIRE
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I sat on my bed reading "Inside the Criminal Mind", by Dr. Stanton Samenow. I loved reading different books that had to do with the Justice System. On my down time it was what I did when I wasn't working or at school. I was either reading books or searching up information online.
Every Thursday and Friday I actually interned in a law office so I get some hands on experiences on how the whole thing works and it only makes me more excited to become a lawyer in the future.
The more I learned about the laws of the criminal system the more in love I fell with the idea if being a lawyer.
I looked at the clock and see that it was going on 11 and I was getting kinda hungry. I closed the book setting it down on my night stand as I got up off the bed heading towards the door. I walked down the small hallway until I reached the kitchen. I knew we didn't have much but before I got home from work I stopped and bought me some snacks.
I grabbed some Oreos and a glass of milk heading back towards my room. Walking in my phone went off. I walked over to the bed placing my snacks on the night stand next to the book and answered the phone.
"Hey baby" I answered once I seen it was my boyfriend Nyrie calling
"Wassup baby. What you doing?"
"Eating some Oreos before bed" I giggled
"What if I come over?" He asked
I contemplated before answering. The last thing I needed was my dad to get home and find me in bed with him. Me and Nyrie been dating for about 2 years now and not once have we had sex. I was honestly scared to have sex with him. I didn't know what he would say or do.
"You know I'm not gonna sleep with you right?" I asked
"Yeah baby. I'm just tryna spend some time with you"
"Okay baby. Knock on my window when you get here"
"Ight babe. I love you" He said making me smile
"I love you too"
We hung and I waited patiently for him. I just prayed we didn't get caught.
