Sometimes we feel like we got life all planned out. We plan for the future but fail to live in the present.
Everything seems perfect to the public eye but behind close doors it's the complete opposite. Heaven becomes Hell but we have no choice but...
Damn y'all 😭 keep showing me the love y'all showing 😊
DAVE
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I felt like the world stopped spinning. How can this be possible? Was she really pregnant?
But how? I didn't notice any changes but then again I was letting my pride get in the way after she rejected me that I was basically ignoring her.
"Wha-att yo-ou mean you lost our ba-aby ?" I stuttered to say
All this caught me by surprise. I never thought that I would lose my first child
"I had a miscarriage"
"What? How? When?" I asked
All these questions just came out at once. I was still trying to see if I heard right
"6 months ago. It happened 2 days before your birthday. I was getting ready to start my day since I was going to buy you your gifts and stuff I had a busy day ahead of me. I bent down to get my shoes from the closet when all of a sudden I got a sharp pain in my stomach. It was so bad that I felt like I couldn't breathe. I fell to the floor holding my stomach. I felt something dripping down my leg" She paused wiping tears and taking a deep breath.
"I-I looked down and seen my jeans were stained with blood. I started freaking out. I grabbed my phone from my pocket so I could call you. I called and called but you never answered. I gave up calling you and called Anthony who rushed to me. When he got here I was crying because I was scared. He rushed me to the hospital where they" She started crying harder
I walked up to her pulling her into a hug.
"They they told me my baby didn't make it. I was 3 months pregnant. They told me due to stress I miscarried" She tighten her grip crying into my chest.
"It's okay Des. Please stop crying" I begged kissing her head. I let out a few tears
"No it's not. I'm so sorry" She said
"It's not you're fault. Don't blame yourself"
"I was going to tell you the next day but I was stuck in the hospital because I started going crazy so they kept me over night. I didn't call no more because I didn't want to worry you. The day of your birthday I decided I should tell you before you found out another way but then you told me that Sandra was pregnant so I figured it didn't even matter no more. You were having another chance of being a father so I kept it to myself"
" You should've still called me Desire. I didn't get none of your calls or else I would've been by your side" I said truthfully
I never received any phone calls from her because lord knows I would've dropped everything for her.
Sandra probably fucked with my phone when she saw it was Desire calling.
"I didn't want to bother you no more. I mean why would I tell you that I couldn't carry your child to full term while your girlfriend just told you that were going to be a father again?"
"Desire you gotta stop thinking your trash compared to everyone else. You lost our baby and that's something serious. You needed me there with you."
She shook her head pulling away from me taking a couple steps back.
"Let's say I did tell you then. Let's say before you drop the news that Sandra was having your baby I told you I lost ours. Then what? Huh? I would've told you to get a DNA test on her baby then you would've told me that I was a jealous bitch because she's gonna give you something I can't. You would've insulted me much worst that you already did. Made me feel the lowest of the lowest. You would've blamed me for losing the baby"She snapped
I looked down taking a deep breath. I wanted to tell her that she was wrong but knowing me and knowing my temper I probably would've hit below the belt and made her feel like complete shit.
"I can't even deny and say that I wouldn't have because knowing me and my temper I probably would've said some real fucked up ass shit but I'm working on it. I apologize for every fucked up thing I told you that day. I'm sorry for putting Sandra's lying ass before you. I regret it deeply and it hurts me to know that I said that shit when your were going through that. I admit that my ego and pride were hurt when you told me that you was tryna be my friend and nothing more. I was so caught up in myself that I failed to realize why you did it"
"How could I be happy with you when I was fighting my inner demons? When I had nothing to give. When every sense of happiness left after each rape incident?"
"And now I understand that now. I was an asshole and I hope that you can forgive me. I didn't mean shit I said"
"I just want to be happy. I can never catch a break. Why did I have to lose my baby" She started crying again falling to the floor.
I got on the floor pulling her to me.
" I don't know baby. I don't know. I guess god didn't think we were ready but everything's going to be good. I got you. I promise I got you"
"So you're not mad that I lost the baby?" She pulled away looking at me
"No Desire. I'm not mad. Upset yeah because I would've loved to have a baby with you but Shit happens and maybe god didn't think we were ready. Everything happens for a reason but I know we gonna be good. I have no doubt in that you just gotta let me in so I can help you. We can heal each other Desire"
"It's just so hard for me to let anyone in because I'm scared they'll use every word against me. That's why I kept everything a secret. You don't understand how much it took for me to tell you that I'm a victim of rape. It took me so much to actually come and tell you and take the risk of you believing me or not but what did you do when you got mad? You threw that Shit in my face and basically called me a liar. That's why I don't tell no one shit. The less people know the less chances I have of shit blowing up in my face"
"Again i apologize but it's not healthy to keep everything bottled up because then you'll end up doing something you have no business doing. I'm working on me so that you can trust me okay"
"Okay" she said softly
"Niggas hurry up Im hungry" Kain yelled
We stood up laughing
"We good?" I asked her
"Yes we we're good" she smiled
I grabbed her neck pulling her closer crashing my lips into hers
We kissed passionately for a few minutes before Kain started pounding on the door
"Bruh y'all can fuck later I'm dying of hunger and they not letting me eat until y'all downstairs" He yelled through the door
"You do realize you're mine right?" I smirked ignoring Kain's loud ass
