Lian's Point of View
When you disappeared, where were you?
When you disappeared, I missed you,
When you disappeared, I cannot see,
When you disappeared, I cannot hear.
I have a lot of questions and one of them is why?
Why did you go and didn't say good bye?
I wished you didn't go because now I could die,
Now you are gone, you cannot be the smoke when I'm high.
Where are you?
I miss you.
Where are you?
I love you.
And when you ask me the most wonderful thing in world?
It's the love I got from you that I cannot reload,
And the most hurtful thing in the world?
It's when I lost someone like you that I cannot afford.
Please come back and never go,
I couldn't stay and go with the flow,
I don't know what happened to me when you were gone,
But I still believe our story is not yet done.
Nung huling kita ko sa kaniya, hindi ko inaakalang iyon na ang huli. Hindi ko man lang naisip kung anong mangyayari dahil masyado akong padalos-dalos.
Sana noon pa, pinagtapat ko na ang tunay kong nararamdaman pero tinaboy ko lang siya. I pushed her away because that's what is right. We pushed each other away because we know that's what is right.
Ni hindi ko siya pinaglaban. Hindi ko pinaglaban ang pagmamahal ko sa kaniya. Bakit ko siya pinakawalan? I was too selfless when I let her go. May kasalanan ba ako sa langit?
"Aren't you going to eat what I brought?" Nabalik lang ako sa realidad ng magsalita si Alexna. Nakabihis at ligo na rin ako. Handang handa na para magtrabaho. Tiningnan ko ang dinala ginawa niyang sandwich para sa akin.
"I lost my appetite." Sabi ko.
Nawalan ako ng gana dahil nag-overthink nanaman ako. Mas lalo akong naenganyong mag-overthink, hindi ko alam kung bakit. Kahit na depression lang ang dala nito sa akin.
It's been years simula ng mawalan na ako ng balita kay Nicole. Ang nabalitaan ko lang noon ay may labanang naganap sa Heavenly Academy.
"Okay, then. Kainin mo na lang mamaya kapag nagutom ka sa work." Sabi niya at nilagay ang sandwich na nasa plastic sa bag ko. "Let's go." Sabi niya. Sumunod lang ako sa kaniya hanggang makarating kami ng parking lot.
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Natapos ang work ng isang normal na araw lang. Stress. Pagod.
Ng makarating na ako sa condo ay agad kong hinubad ang damit ko at pumasok sa CR. Bukas ang shower. Ramdam ko ang pagtulo ng tubig sa ulo ko, aunod sa katawan ko. Bukas nga ang shower pero nakatunganga lang ako. Siguro dahil sa pagod.
Pinatay ko ang shower at kinuha ang towel para punasan ang buhok at katawan ko. Lumabas ako ng CR habang pinupunasan pa rin ang buhok ko.
Kung iniisip niyong wala akong boxers or brief, oo.
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