That Summer When She Cried

That Morning Full Of Stutter

I'm not a bipolar. I thought I was but I'm not. I thought I saw a monster but she isn't. Seriously, bakit naninigas ako kapag dumadaan na sya?

-Kevin

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Nauurat na ako kanina pa sa lahat ng nangyayari.

Ano ba to? Preschool teacher sa umaga, haliparot sa gabi?

Sa totoo lang, naguguluhan na ako sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit si Kap hindi kahit na kung tutuusin, mas madalas naman silang magkasama.

Ang bait saka mukhang di makabasag-pinggan pag nakikita ko sa umaga pero pagdating sa gabi, kung nakaka-kain sya ng tao, nalamon nya na ng buhay si Teng.

Simple lang manamit sa umaga pero pag akyat ng buwan, napipilitan na lang na magdamit.

Hindi kaya sya taong lobo para madali na lang masira pag nagtransform na sya?

Wow, Angel Locsin. Iba ka talaga Kev! Galing ng imagination mo!

I silently watched them while teacher was torridly kissing him na kulang na lang humiga na silang dalawa sa harap naming lahat. Okay, I must admit one part of me was envious of what Kap would end up having tonight pero sana hindi na nila ipinapaalam sa akin kung ano ang wala ako. Kahit kelan, hindi ko naisip na si Teng ang makikita ko na may couch scene. Si Pe, pwede pa.

When the rest of the guests left, I was contented talking to Ed and Karim since they were all busy with their own lives. Kap was busy with Tanya, Jeron with Karl, Pe with Aira. Kim was busy talking to someone on the phone.

Pag dumating nga naman ang kamalasan. Nagrurubber shoes ka pa lang para makatakbo ka,  inabutan ka na.

Shortly, Tanya pulled everyone out of their seats to join them on the dance floor. I mingled with some other people while the rest were busy with their own little worlds.

Kanya-kanyang bulong e di hahanap na din ako ng kabulungan ko.

Mayamaya, hindi ko na nakita si Kap saka si Tanya. We separated ways without seeing the pair anymore. Fort said that Kap left the money with him to pay for the expenses, kasama si Tanya na umalis.

Alam na. Alam na alam.

I wasn't completely drunk and I was able to drive for myself safely going home. Natulog na din ako agad pagdating ng bahay pero wala pa ako sa gitna ng panaginip ko ng biglang may tumawag.

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Tanya went back to the hospital right after Jeric accompanied her sa pagkuha ng gamit sa bahay for Luke then he drove back for her. It was a good timing since we were able to move to a private room while they were out.

I was surprised though when instead of going home, the guy she was with opted to stay with us. Tanya was quiet and they remained civil. She looked tired but I didn't see any sign of her giving up soon. He kept watching over her and I couldn't help but wish I hope he stays for good.

It was past 4 AM when Luke woke up and found her sitting on a chair while leaning on the wall. He found her sitting beside Jeric whose arms were extended to become her pillow.

"Big Lady," we heard Luke say. Agad na tumayo si Tanya at tinabihan sa kama ang bata. Luke immediately wrapped his tiny arms around her. "Don't go anymore please."

Tanya hugged him back. "I'm not going anywhere. Big Lady's sorry for leaving you behind. Are you doing better now?"

He nodded. "I couldn't breathe earlier."

"Tita Andie told me. Why didn't you tell me you were not okay?"

He shook his head. "Batman's busy saving other people. I can't take you away from them though I just wanted you to sleep beside me. I don't want to have any bad dreams."