Carolina

Chapter 56

"You never call me princess" I told Harry.

"What?"

"Last night" I tell him "I heard you, you called me princess. You never call me princess Haz"

"You weren't suppose to hear that and you are my princess" he smiled cheekily at me.

"Why did you do it?" I asked him.

"There aren't excuses for what I did"

"But just tell me"

He sighed "I was missing you like crazy and we haven't spoken for days, I was feeling insecure"

I sighed "did you feel anything?" I asked him.

"No, god no why would you ask?" He asked me.

"I needed to Harry, did you regret it after it happened?"

"A million times yes" he grabs my hand "once it was done, the only thing that went through my mind was you and the kids leaving me" he kissed my hands "I will forever be sorry for hurting you and Matt"

"I don't know how to hand this now" I tell him truthfully "I love you and I want us to work this out but we can't move on like this never happened"

"No of course not"

"So what should we do?" I asked him.

"How about therapy?"

"You would go to therapy with me?"

"Yeah of course"

I smiled "then yes, let's give it a try but no kissing until them"

"Seriously?"

"Yes seriously, I'm not ready for that yet"

"Alright then okay"

He moved his hands. I could tell he was struggling since he couldn't be intimate with me.

"I'll book an appointment today"

I laughed "it's killing you isn't?"

"Yeah, you must love it" he smirked.

"I do actually" I smirked "I have to go to work, let me know what time is the appointment and I'll meet you there"

*****

"I guess I'm wondered that something like this would happen with Katherine" Harry stated.

"Harry" I faced him "don't you know by now that you are the only man for me?"

"But you told me about that guy?"

"That guy was no one, he was never anything even close to special Harry. What you and I have, what we created as a couple. That's real" I tell him "and you have to trust me to tell you if something ever happened. But I trusted you, you didn't come home and tell me right away. We had a night where we were honestly and you didn't share it then. You waited until I found out to admit to it, why?"

"I was scared! I was so fucking scared baby you have no idea" he grabbed my hands "the fear of losing you, losing the kids. I would be nothing without you three, you guys are my entire world"

"Honey" I kissed his cheek "I love you"

"I love you too"

"So how about we work on steps? Steps of trust, Harry you need to gain back Katherine's trust"

"Okay well what do I have to do?" Harry asked.

"That's up to her when the time comes"

We left the appointment and went home. Matt was at school and Anastasia was at daycare with her cousin Ellie.

"So" I mumbled "I have some news to tell you and I don't know how you're going to react"

"What is it?" Harry asked me interested.

"I got asked to walk in a runway"

"What? Seriously Kat?" He smiled.

"Yes but I wanted to see what you thought first"

"Yes do it! Love that's amazing" he wrapped his arms around me and held me close, he passed the first test just like I figured he would.

"Where is it?"

"New York"

"Then we'll take the kids to New York to see you"

"We might not be able to bring Ana, she's too young"

"Then we'll ask Gill to watch her"

"Are you sure about this?" I asked him.

"More than sure" he smiled "I'm so proud of you babe"

"Thanks Haz" I kissed him.

"I'm going to go pick up the kids, have the house to yourself for a bit" he smiled.

"You're sweet babe, thank you"

He kissed me and left. I grabbed a bottle of wine and ran to the bathroom and set up a bath for myself.

"Love we're back!" Harry yelled "Matt go do some homework"

I heard footsteps and looked up to see him walk in and closed the door and sat on the floor.

"When is the show?" He asked me.

"Next month"

"We are going to go to New York, to support you"

"You don't have to do that honey"

"I am your husband and I am going to be there to support you and cheer as loud as I can"

I laughed "I think we're going to be okay" I grabbed his hand.

"Me too" he smiled "I'll go start dinner"

He left and I got out and into my pajamas. I grabbed Ana and went to go play with her.

"So Matt" Harry started and I watched "next month we will be going to New York for a week"

"Wait seriously?! What about school?"

"Well, you will get the homework you're going to miss and catch up but you'll be coming"

"Seriously?! Wait why are we going to New York"

"Love you want to tell him?" Harry asked me.

"I got this" I got up "Matty, I will be walking on a runaway"

"What seriously?"

"Yes" I laughed as he ran to hug me.

"I knew this was going to happen!"

"You did?" Harry asked.

"Yeah, I called it once mom got the modeling job because I knew she would be amazing" I smiled as I hugged him.

*****

"Harry, all I want is for us to go back to the couple we used to be" I tell him as I'm laying on his chest "I want us to be there for one another physically, emotionally, support each other, be each other's rocks"

"I want that too babe" he kissed my forehead "you had a big day today" he ran his hands through my hair.

"I love you"

"I love you too Kat"