see what you're finding // 6th spam

can you agree with yourself and do as you decided? no?

i'm sitting in my room and crying because my new glasses arrived and i've been wearing them all afternoon and i hate them and i look like an idiot and i look so ugly and i usually never cared about what i look like but for some reason this is making me so- i don't even know the word i just hate myself and i don't wanna go to school tomorrow nor ever looking like this and i'm so scared of going to school tomorrow because of this and i'm having some pictures for my visa and passport taken tonight looking like this and i hate it and my mom even put freaking makeup on my face god knows why and now my whole face is burning because i'm freaking allergic to the contents of makeup and i asked her why she did that and she said "why not?" so i retorted with "you just did this because you're so embarrassed of me" and then she got mad at me and said nothing else but legit now why the hell would she put makeup on me if she's not ashamed of my face and because my face is disgusting to her so she has to fix it and she denied all that but why. else. would. you. do. that. i mean she knows i despise all makeup other than eyeliner but she still does this and i'm just so ugly with these glasses on but everyone and i say everyone wants to see me because it's new and it's a change but it's also gross and i don't wanna look like this i'm sitting in my room and crying