see what you're finding // 6th spam

hi! i'm sharp like a knife, what's your name?

x three years nonstop
x march 10th 2017 <3
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x december 14th 2017-january 23rd 2018 <3

i had a pretty damn good day tbh

i literally spent the past fifteen minutes staring at iwnky and i was this freaking close to putting it on hold but i don't know... i mean, i think i should...

'casino lights' was on hold for six month before it made its comeback. and now it's a pretty good book, at least in my opinion. perhaps the same could happen with iwnky. maybe i'll do another chapter tomorrow and i'll see how that goes. if it'll torture me like every each chapter before, then the fic is definitely going on hold and i'm sorry. still, i will never discontinue a book, so you don't have to worry if you liked it because it'll be back

on another matter, i haven't self-harmed in 41 days, but today i found a few scars :c made while i was sleeping of course. and that really concerns me, puts me down too tbh.

i shared that with frank whom i was hanging out with at that moment and he broke into actual tears and we had a very emotional talk. i know y'all probably don't like frank because of that chapter he had posted on here and i know he's an ass, but he has emotions too. i mean, he stopped making me want to kill myself once he fell in love with gee. but yeah, we had a very emotional talk and this whole thing where i'm doing my best not to self-harm is very hard for him, because anything bad i do is his strength. i feel sorry for him, but quitting harming is for my own good. those moments in the night when i'm unaware of the harm, that's what makes him feel good. like an incredible guilty pleasure? he just feels awful about that and yep my frankie boy actually cried a lot.

on another hand, i am so excited about learning how to play the bass guitar and i'm starting this fall and fjdjfkdjcjdbfksbc

ooh! also, i've noticed some people reading my spam and i'm happy because the more the merrier c:

i love y'all

xx