see what you're finding // 6th spam

i've done some bad things, but the worst i've revealed after death

okay people, i have some stuff to say

not that it'll matter much because not a lot of people read my spam book(s) anymore /: yeah, ever since i've come clean about my frens, quite a few people just left

anyways, i'm trying to stay away from bad thoughts because i've had an awesome day and i'm vv happy and i'd love to stay that way!

first of all;

x three years nonstop
x march 10th 2017 <3
x five months nonstop
x august 16th 2017 <3
x august 18th 2017 <3
x august 21th 2017 <3
x august 23rd 2017 <3
x august 24th 2017 <3
x september 1st 2017 <3
x september 20th-22nd 2017 <3
x october 1st 2017 <3
x october 3rd-6th 2017 <3
x october 15th 2017 <3
x october 19th 2017 <3
x october 21st 2017 <3
x october 23rd 2017 <3
x october 25th 2017 <3
x october 30th 2017 <3
x november 1st-5th 2017 <3
x november 7th 2017 <3
x november 8th 2017 <3
x november 10th 2017 <3
x november 11th 2017 <3
x november 13th 2017 <3
x november 16th 2017 <3
x november 18th 2017 <3
x november 19th 2017 <3
x november 21st 2017 <3
x november 23rd 2017 <3
x november 24th 2017 <3
x november 26th 2017 <3
x november 27th-december 3rd 2017 <3
x december 5th 2017 <3
x december 11th 2017 <3
x december 12th 2017 <3
x december 14th 2017-march 6th 2018 <3

83 days!! i know i don't post the dates on here daily anymore, but i keep track on my own? that's totally fine, yeah?

second of all;

i am so sorry for not being frequent with updates! i'm gonna try to update more, i'm seriously going to try. i might finally update 'casino lights' tomorrow! after i've finished these three books, i am not gonna put myself through the same shit that is having more than two on going books. it's just pure nonsense and it needs to stop. two books are healthy and not crossing any lines.

third of all;

i'm gonna start a new book, but it's not gonna count into the whole "how many on going books i have published" because it'll be a one shots book and i won't even attempt at being frequent with it. it's gonna just be up for the times when i have writer's block or i just feel like writing a new one shot. all of the one shots will be inspired by the posts from the instagram account @/writing.prompt.s! i'm excited about it c: all one shots will be dedicated to my sister if not stated otherwise. also, they'll consist of various ships and maybe a few one shots will revolve around only one character, but i'm sticking to fanfiction. these will probably be huge one shots, i don't even want to think of how big the word counts will be.

fourth of all;

i've really been "neglecting" this book, haven't i? i really just use snapchat for most things i used to write on here. still, i don't post any seriously personal stuff on snapchat. this is more of a place where i feel calm and at peace. i can say anything, basically. well, almost everything (of course).

fifth of all;

i've been more unhappy with myself lately and i think that my mind is actually forcing me off wattpad because i'm afraid of opening up about how i feel and wattpad often leads me into saying a lot of shit about myself. i'm trying to be happy and it works quite a good amount of times, but there are certain moments when i just feel so broken. i try to cover those moments up with anything, but i don't know. i might attempt at writing in here more often.

sixth of all;

i started listening to waterparks?? just saying??

seventh of all;

if anyone cares, my frens are happy and healthy. we've been having some arguments, but mostly minor ones. well, we decide to make them minor. i've told you about frank doing his shit, but i think we're fine now. he put me in one situation where i was talking to someone and feeling very embarrassed. i mean, how would you feel if your friend knows more about you than what you've told them? i managed to get myself out of that problem though? so we're good c:

eighth of all;

i've been reading a lot of short-chaptered fics, such as those which have one sentence per chapter and they're really nice, i absolutely adored a few of them, most of them actually. but they just doing give me that book feeling, if you know what i mean?

nineth of all;

i love y'all

xx