see what you're finding // 6th spam

a heart in a jar. no. a jar of hearts.

well, it's no longer the cursed date...

i literally spent the entire morning and school time crying i actually don't know how i managed to cry so much, but alright

my phone had mercy most of the time and literally no super sad songs came on; "light behind your eyes" started playing at one point and my phone legit just shut off, thus i was saved

i most honestly don't give a fuck about what you guys think of that day because it's more than sad to me and i don't want to hear any of people's shit about how they're fine

i felt very confident in school because i was dressed in my fake black parade jacket and i had a ton on eyeliner on and i had my hair done nicely; my classmates asked me to explain what emo means and i really liked talking about that because they were genuinely nice and interested

a very good friend from my class was really nice and helpful and she was constantly trying to make me stop crying and i don't wanna talk about that day anymore because i'm crying already so i'll just sculpt one of the convos i had with my said friend

she: didn't you say you live in 2005?

me: yeah

she: and when did this breakup happen?

me: 2013

she: so, technically, it didn't happen yet? don't cry c: