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i rly dislike computer wattpad but oh well i can write this shit

yesterday, we had some reporter dude come and take videos/pictures of the team that i'm a part of and damn. 

he was just moving around us a lot and i felt really uncomfortable and i didn't even have my shoes on but someone else's and i didn't have my rifle and my heart was just beating a bunch because of how the dude just stood there with the camera in my fucking face let me just tell you it was not fun

but he left very soon and i really started to like the new rifle i got. it really fit me and i felt good shooting with it and i was much calmer than lately which made me happy

but then, my dad came by to me and told me that two women off the team that i'm on are leaving the club and they won't shoot at all anymore and that i shouldn't worry because my sister's gonna be on the team once they leave so my sister, another girl and me will make a team and we're all great shooters so he was very happy and telling me how excited he is about the next season which starts next fall (duh) but then i told him that mom made me choose between rifle shooting and bass school and i chose bass and my dad made his trademark sad face and walked away and i really really felt like shit in that moment i just hate making him sad or disappointed

all in all, i don't feel too bad. it was just that at those moments i felt like the whole world was exaggeratingly horrible, but then my sister walked into the room and everything was instantly fixed