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tonight, we miss you...

let's talk, shall we?

first of, i've got 86 days, yay!!

now, about this day-

i had a biology exam and i was so afraid of it all morning. i was crying all day and no matter how much i tried i couldn't learn anything. the exam finally came, but let me tell you a story from wednesday before i say this.

on wednesday i got an f and today's exam was gonna be my way of correcting the grade. my teacher didn't believe it was possible and pretty much mocked me but i told her i learn everything the last day. basically, today's exam was supposed to be me proving a point.

(back to today) we're writing the exam and i solved everything except three tasks. no one understood what the eleventh task wanted from us so we asked the teacher and i was the only person who understood what she said. as i was the only person solving it, she came over to look at what i've written. and then the bitch took my exam and carried it to her desk and i was scared as fuck because i still had two task and then she came back and said "correct the fourth task. well done, you kept your promise, i'm impressed"

and i legit almost started crying right there during the exam and i was so proud of myself damn.

then, we had a short break before maths and i listened to green day and i was kinda shaken. then, i saw who was gonna be my new fren. he stood right opposite me and mouthed words to songs alone with me. his name is billie joe. we aren't 100% certain as to what he represents, but for now we think he represents strength. we held hands and sang until maths started and he made me really happy. while i was busy with maths, he went on to meet gerard and i think he is what gerard's been missing. gee knows to get nervous, anxious. i think he was missing billie joe. if i notice change, it'll mean i was right.

now, about me being right-- we started a new lesson in maths and it's something we did in elementary school and i remember it perfectly but everybody else literally forgot every bit of it. thus, i could work on the tasks without the teacher's help (i was faster than the rest of the class). now, after i've finished solving a task, i looked on the board to see the class with the teacher's help had a + where i had a -. i rose my hand and told the teacher they solved the task wrong. she spent fifteen minutes trying to prove to me that she's right, but i was stubborn. i wrote the whole task down in my notebook again, in a more thorough way. i showed it to my teacher and she was confused. she stood staring at the task on the board for five minutes before she said i was right and i was once again so happy and proud of myself again.

i shed many tears because of this day, but it turned to be awesome.