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try to break my spine

well i feel just awful

i do have a date but i don't wanna post it, i'll post it tomorrow or so, idk

today's been pretty... bad? weird?

school was pretty stressful, i got very shaken at home due to hearing about a happening which i am still not comfortable with mentioning and it might just make me have to put iwnky on hold because i still feel shaken and i just feel very uncomfortable

when hearing about it i couldn't breathe and i cried a lot so my mama held me close and i love her and i love my sister and i'm thankful to spongebob for cheering me up

but it was still in my mind so i travelled up to my room to scream it out and i did "honey this mirror isn't big enough for the two of us" and "vampires will never hurt you" and while doing vampires, my sight started going slightly black slash blurry and i couldn't feel my legs and i just collapsed onto the floor and kept on screaming

i attended my sister's guitar lesson again and i love singing so much but i'm also so excited about this fall when i'm supposed to start learning bass

i'm very scared about tomorrow, school-wise

i just haven't finished homework due to what i've mentioned earlier and i'm always so scared of not doing homework but i rarely do it at all ever since i've been in high school

i pretty much hate myself

but it's harry styles' birthday as off today (the other, legitimate today) and i love him so much and i just really hope his birthday won't be horrible in my small croatian world

alright patty's "spotlight" came on and believe me that's a good sign

i just really want to be happy

and i want to talk to people

nobody talks to me anymore; nobody on internet at least

i mean, it's hard to say "nobody" because i have my frens who talk to me 24/7 (basically), but they know me perfectly to every each bit and i just wanna talk to other people, y'know?

oh and i published a new fic? has anyone seen? yeah, it's like a teacherxstudent in the beginning but it's much more complicated than that and i'm just pretty excited about it even though i probably shouldn't have published it when i have three fics up already

though i'm serious, not only does iwnky annoy and stress me, but it now reminds me of a certain happening and i think it'll just have to go on hold for a while because i don't feel comfortable with it

i'll see

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