see what you're finding // 6th spam

and when she tangles into your mind- things get worse than hell could ever be

i've been watching sad edits and videos of the emo quartet for like two hours now and i stg i've been crying since the first second of the first video and i am still crying and i-

i just felt like i needed to cry, yeah? the only moment of today in which i cried was that dream where patrick died, but that was only a little so my parents don't start asking questions

i just needed to cry now. and i honestly feel incredibly hurt, but kind of better. if that makes any sense. because crying is good for you. it helps let things out. you should never cage in thoughts nor feelings.

but, it is also very late. it's 6:12am at the moment. i can hear my dad on the street in our car; he's leaving to go on a competition. my mom is gonna come upstairs to wake my sister and me up pretty soon.

my eyes hurt, my cheeks are burning from the tears, my back hurts because i can'f find a comfortable position. my brain hurts because i overthink everything and because i wonder too much. my heart hurts for so many reasons.

but i'm only allowed to be hurt in the dark. i'm only allowed to be hurt when i'm alone.

"and that's the worst part of being depressed; you're surrounded by people, but you still feel alone"