"Friends" 2 || G.D. ||

25: Shower

this update is longer than my usual updates so have fun ❤️

Lynn's P.O.V. 

After washing my mouth out and cleaning off my face, I walk to my bedroom and take out my phone. I notice that the date is the tenth. Grayson and Ethan's birthday is in less than a week. I sigh. 

I just wish this would all blow over. I'm so fucking tired of being alone. And I just want to be able to talk and love Grayson again. I could care less if I ever can become pregnant, anymore. Almost two weeks have passed since the doctor's appointment that told me that I have a low percentage of being able to have children.  

Maybe I wasn't meant to have children for a reason since there is the smallest possibility that I will ever get pregnant. 

I just want Grayson. I feel like shit, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I really need to call my regular doctor and go in to get a checkup. 

I dial the doctor's number and let it ring until the receptionist picks up. 

"Hello. Los Angles Northwest Hospital. Thank you for calling Dr. Jimson's office. What can I help you with?" the lady rambles probably for the millionth time today.

"Hello, my name is Lynn Dolan. I just called to ask if I could set up a checkup appointment. I have been coughing and puking the last couple days and I just want to make sure that it isn't something super serious," I say. All I need is something else to be wrong with me.

"Yes. We are completely booked up until the 15th. Does that date work for you?" she asks.

"Yeah, what times do you have open?" I ask. 

"We have 3:15 pm open. Does that work?" she asks.

"Yes. Thank you," I say.

"Okay. You are all set up. Sorry it has to be so late," she apologizes. 

"It's not a problem. Thank you," I say.

"Okay. Have a wonderful rest of your day. 

The next couple days travel fast. I continue puking and coughing. Grayson seems to be more distant. I haven't talked to Ethan in about a week. Monica hasn't spoken to me at all. 

I lay in bed, getting up occasionally to try to eat or to puke. I try to sleep and that's how I spend my days. 

This leaves me and my mind. My mind continues to wander back to the day Grayson and Monica were whispering. Somedays Grayson acts normal for a couple minutes and then goes back to being distant. 

I never once thought it would be like this. It makes me wonder and think about me and Grayson's marriage. Maybe we rushed into things. Maybe we shouldn't of have gotten married after 7 months. 

Maybe we should have waited. Maybe we would have broken up. Maybe we would have never gotten married. Maybe he would have ended up with Monica. Maybe they would have gotten married and she would be completely able to have children with him. Maybe she would make him happy. 

Today is my checkup. I have to get a shower. I need to stop thinking. I get up and strip my clothes off and grab a clean towel. I walk to the bathroom. I know that Monica left last night and she hasn't returned yet. 

Tomorrow is Ethan and Grayson's birthday. While I am out, I am going to have to go grocery shopping. I have been meaning to do it but I have felt like complete and utter shit. I will also have to get Grayson and Ethan a birthday present. 

I open the bathroom door and step inside. I hear the shower water on and I can see Grayson in the shower washing his hair. He doesn't notice me.

I drop my towel and slide the door to the shower as I step in. Grayson turns around and looks at me.