Please Understand Why

Your forgotten Love

Dear Chance,

            I can't help it, I'm addicted and you're my drug. I don't see you as some terrible person who had once hurt me. But, I see you as the person who stole my heart with an award-winning smile and gorgeous eyes. I truly do believe Rachel and you are adorable together. Yet, the bitter part of me thinks otherwise. I'd give all of my happiness away just for you to look me in the eyes the same way you used too, to tell me you love me, and be wrapped in your arms. In all honesty I couldn't and wouldn't care if you broke me over and over again. And, every time I see you looking distraught, I just want to hold you in my arms and be able to tell you that everything is going to be okay. Just to help you with any and every problem there may be. I know it's wrong of me to think like this but god, I've told you oh so many times before. You make me so happy. Just hearing a joke or your voice sends a happy wave of joy through me. You are my addiction not in a bad way like I'm going to become all creepy stalker on you. But, just know that I do notice and I see a lot of things you would have never guessed. I've come to realize that if you never broke up with me then I would have never learned to love myself or find who I really care about. It's also a roller coaster of emotions. To say I was hurt when you told me you were now dating Rachel not that far past our break is an understatement. I was angry, torn, sad and questioning if I was or ever will be good enough. I saw Rachel as a friend. But, that day I only saw her as an enemy who I should have watched closer. I didn't speak to no one that day, not family, not to messages. I was lost in my head and hurt. I was bitter towards her and you. Probably for the best. But then we started talking again and of course, it was awkward at first, but I had missed the way conversation flowed between us and like magic, the conversation still flowed. And, like on cue every time I saw your name appear on my phone screen, butterflies would fill my stomach and I couldn't help but smile. Thinking about how I was amazed you answered me. It's still that way, sometimes. Other times I get scared wondering what could you have said next. But, I miss you. I miss you so much. I know I see you every day, we don't speak in person. So, it feels like your miles away. Please don't leave my life Chance, I realized I'm happier with you here in it than with you away.

Your Forgotten love,

Unknown