Please Understand Why

Life is...

Life is a nightmare,

You're shaking and terrified. Running through the suddenly narrow hall of the temple, but your run is actually a slow-motion jog. The monster chasing you is suddenly extremely fast, now creeping up on you. You gasp wanting to get that sweet release of your alarm but no. You scream as a claw comes through your stomach. Your intestines now flowing out, and the horrid metallic copper taste filling your throat before spilling out your mouth. The tears flowed like a river down your face as you cough up more. The monsters now stare at the side of your face in awe. But now you finally see, it's not an actual monster, but a person whom you loved the most. The person you thought would never hurt you, now has their claw-like hand through your stomach. Smiling as you cough and cry, until it all goes dark. You feel as if your falling, you believe you are dead. Just to quickly sit up in a cold sweat. You ball your eyes out, all the events seemed so real. You actually thought you were dead. Curling up hoping it would help you feel safe but, it doesn't you still remember them stabbing you. Looking now at your ceiling you know there is no way you can go back to sleep, afraid to close your eyes knowing that you may see the monster again. Searching the room, you make sure the coast is clear before laying in a dull silence. Wishing to drift away.

               Some of us only find this fear in our sleep, and for that you are lucky. Others live with this type of fear and anxiety. We are left with the panic breathing and heart pounding awaking, at all times. Some people say life is a nightmare, because they had a few bad events, like failed a test, crashed their car, and didn't get accepted into their dream college. Now I'm not saying that isn't valid and not bad. I just wished I had those problems. You think I'm crazy for wanting that right? I'm just saying that seems like a walk in the park, compared to what happens to me. Nowadays it seems as if everyone is out to out-struggles someone. Meaning you could say you have a problem and then someone will say their own problems. Like it's not a competition about who has the worse life. If I have a problem, I want your help and advice. Not ¨of well I have too... etc.¨ Or, "that's not so bad, I have...". Did I ask? No. Do I care? A little because I care about your well-being. But otherwise no. I don't want to compete with you. I won't. You do know how ignorant you sound. It reminds me of when Jean called my aunt racist for every little problem that accord between them. It wasn't a race thing, it was a behavior thing. Just like it a race of who can have more and worst problems. It's about being there and being supportive and knowing your timing. And if I'm honest my life this year has been a series of event led by either good or bad timing. However, if you look through the bright side you probably won't see the nightmare part. But if you only look on the bad side that's all you see. It's all about perspective.

Living Nightmare,

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