The Bad Part About Loving Her

Chapter 54

Two weeks Later

"How is she?". Jordan asked coming into the kitchen to Carter cooking.

"Well, she has stopped crying. And she is talking a little bit. Kayden's the only thing that makes her smile". Carter reported.

Jordan nodded.

"It'll get better". Jordan patted his back.

"Well she's looking at me now". Carter shrugged.

"Its not your fault. She just feels ashamed that she failed you as the woman who was supposed to carry your child". Jordan explained.

"That's the thing. I don't blame her. I don't know who to blame". Carter sighed.

"I'm gonna go see her and then I gotta head to the studio". Jordan planned.

She walked into the living room and Alex was curled up on the couch with a blanket thrown over her. She was watching Up.

"Hey, Alex I came to see you". Jordan sat next to her.

Alex looked to her best friend.

"What you watching?". Jordan asked.

Alex pressed a button on the remote to show what she was watching.

"Oh. Up. I remember we were twelve years old when that movie came out. Your Mom didn't want my Mom to take you with us to see it. But you came anyway once she left the house". Jordan reminisced.

Alex smiled faintly at the memory.

"Well, I gotta go to the studio but, I'll be back to check on you later OK?". Jordan kissed Alex's forehead.

"I love you Alex". She smiled with tears in her eyes.

Jordan came back to Carter.

"She is broken. She won't even answer me". Jordan cried.

"Jordan, this is eating me up too. Along with the baby. Alex isn't her usual jokey self. I miss that". Carter replied.

"I guess we will just have to let this play out then". Jordan sighed.

She grabbed her purse and left.

Carter sighed. He just wanted the old Alex back.

He went to sit in the living room with her. He sat next to her.

She sat up and sat on his lap. She was facing him.

"I love you". Alex kissed his nose.

He placed his hands on her butt.

"What do you love me for?". He whispered looking up at her.

"For understanding. For waiting on me day and night. For being sensitive. For everything". Alex smiled.

"What changed your mind?". He asked her.

"I don't wanna live blaming myself for what happened. I wanna move on. I wanna love you and Kay and be myself again. I don't want to be sad anymore". Alex smiled.

"I understand that. And what about the baby, how do you feel about that?". Carter really wanted to know her true feelings.

"I think if we are meant to have a baby then we will". Alex smiled.

Carter found himself getting lost in her eyes.

"What are you doing?". Alex giggled.

"Getting lost in brown pools of perfection". He kissed her cheek.

"Mhm". Alex smirked.

*
Later they took Kayden out to dinner.

"What you wanna eat baby?". Alex asked him showing him the menu.

"Chicken and fries". He answered focusing on coloring his menu.

A group of girls came up to Alex asking for her autograph.

"You are so awesome, we literally listen to Replay all the time". The leader hyped.

"Thank you so much for y'all support". Alex smiled signing the last autograph.

They all walked away.

"I admire you". Carter held her hand.

"I admire you too". Alex grinned.

"I amire Mommy too". Kayden pied up.

Alex and Carter chuckled.

"So you don't admire Daddy?". Alex looked down to Kayden.

"No". Kayden shook his head.

"Why not?". Alex was really amused.

"Because he don't make me no pancakes". Kayden shook his head.

Alex and Carter burst into laughter.

"So if he makes you pancakes will you admire him then?". Alex spoke in between laughs.

"Yes". Kayden nodded.

"Well Mr. Green I guess you have a job to do tomorrow morning". Alex sipped her soda.

"I guess so". Carter nodded.

*

After dinner they went home.

Alex went into the bathroom to give Kayden a bath. She ran the bath water as he ran around the house trying to find his bath toys and his superman pajamas.

He can into the bathroom and with his pajamas on one hand and his bag of bath toys in the other.

Alex undressed him and sat him in the tub. She emptied the bag into the tub and began to bathe Kayden.

"So how was your playdate with Hayden and Sanai?". Alex asked.

"I had fun! Hayden got new toys". He replied.

Alex finished bathing him. She dried him off and helped him put on his pajamas.

She carried him to his bedroom. She put him in bed and tucked him in.

"I love you Kayden. You are very important to me. You are a beautiful human being and I am glad I have you. Goodnight". Alex kissed his forehead.

She had always told Kayden how important he was to her. No one, not even Carter came before Kayden.

Kayden kissed her cheek.

"Goodnight Mommy". He smiled up at her.

She turned on his night light and pulled his door closed.

Carter was already in bed watching tv.

"He's sleeping". Alex sighed plopping down on the bed.

Carter rolled over pulling her into his arms.

"Feeling better?". He asked.

"I'm getting there". Alex answered truthfully.

He kissed her cheek and they went to sleep.