problematic ➳ reddie

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june ❀ age 15 -16

"so, you and justin?" stan lifted a brow at eddie who rolled his eyes.

"it's not like we're together"

"yeah? what is it then? you two sure do seem to be close" stan smirked a bit and glanced at eddie, then getting back to his drawing.

"I don't even know how you see that, because we can't be lovey dovey on public places because derry is the most homophobic town in the world. also if my mother found out...."

"don't tilt your head" stan said and put his hand on eddie's cheek and tilted eddie's head back to the position it was before.

"sorry" eddie apologized.

"and I get what you mean, but if you really love someone, wouldn't you be with them as much as in public as you want, no matter what other people think" stan lifted a brow.

"well yeah, but I also don't want to die" eddie groaned. "homophobia is a sin, remember?"

"and yet, you're a homosexual and all you can think about it dick" stan smirked. eddie kicked stan's leg.

"hey! don't bother the artist" stan pointed out, smiling a little at the modeling eddie.

"and how about you anyways? still figured anything out?" eddie asked.

stan stopped drawing. he looked pass the sketchbook in his hands, eddie's legs. "I don't know how to describe it"

"try?"

"it's like.." stan put the notebook aside and looked up at eddie. "like I...I don't exactly mind of being with anyone..you know, a guy or a girl, but at the same time, I don't feel any sexual attraction towards them"

"so...you don't like the idea of sex?" eddie asked.

"no, I do...I mean, I'd like to have sex, yeah, but..with who, that's what I don't know" stan sighed. "i told you it was complicated"

"so wait, you want to have sex, you like the idea of it and you could imagine yourself being with girls and guys but you don't know to who exactly you're attracted to?" eddie questioned.

"yeah, something like that. i'm scared I'll never be able to find anyone"

"I think I've heard of this. betty told me some day about these....she said something like...asexuality, but that's not it. then she said...pansexuality"

"and that is?" stan asked.

"that you don't mind the gender of the person, you like...only feel attracted to the personality or something.."

"that could be right" stan shrugged and thought.

"but then she said something else too...demi...demisexuality, i think" eddie said. "it's like...you feel sexual attraction towards the person who you really love"

"so all I have to think about right now, is who do I want to have sex with and that's that?" stan asked.

"yeah basically" eddie giggled. "let's try. do you want to have sex with bev?"