You know, I know

Chapter 4

February
Olivia

Today I'm not feeling right, my heads spinning and I feel sick. I've been feeling this way for 2 days now. I had to ask Niall if he would get the shopping for me and some medicine.

My moms gone to work, she made me some toast which I haven't touched and I'm not going to either. Bella has gotten back with Jax, Jax never cheated on her, he was with his cousin and Bella got the wrong idea. Ethan is as happy as anything because he asked Ellie to prom and she said yes.

They are at school now and the house is empty. I'm meant to be doing Bella's and Ethan's 16th party plans but I haven't started them yet.

It's boring being in a house by myself, I was meant to be seeing Reece today but I said I couldn't.

Reece is my other boy best friend, we've been best friends since the start of secondary school.  We used to be as close as anything but he moved to New York for college but he came back a couple of days ago.

I lied back down on my pillow, I didn't have anything to do so I am just going to go back I sleep.
As I was just about to drift off to sleep my phone buzzed. I let out a groan and grabbed my phone.
Reece
"Hey liv, I know that your ill but I really want to see you so can I come to yours? Xx"

I love how Reece wants I see me whatever state that I'm in,  I do have some feeling toward Reece but I'm with Niall and I'm happy.

"Yeah you can come, but watch out I'm ill 😝. Front doors unlocked and I'm in bed 😂 but I'll get up for ya. See you in a bit munch"

I jump out of bed and go straight to the bathroom and turn on the shower and jump in. I have the quickest shower that I've ever had and run back into my room and get dressed. I pull on the leggings that Niall bought me and one of his hoodies he gave me. I quickly dried my hair and ran down stairs.
Just as I got to the bottom step Reece opened the front door and closed it after him.

"REECE!" I scream happily and jump of the step into his open arms.
"Hey there bugs"
He swings me around in the air and then places my feet back on the floor. 
"I missed you liv"
"I missed you too Reece"
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Reece had been here 2 hours, we had talked about what he had missed and what I had missed. We were laughing and joking about everything. But when I told him that I'm with Niall he went silent and he left without saying goodbye. I know that he had got feelings for me and it must be hard watching the people you love be with someone else, but I couldn't of been with Reece because of him being over the other side of the world and he didn't know when he would be coming back to London.

I knew it was the best for me to loose the little feeling that I had for Reece and focus on my love for Niall and that's what I did and now I'm with Niall the man that makes me happy as anything. I wouldn't change Niall for anyone at all.

I got up and put my shoes on and put my phone on my pocket. I walked out the front door locking it behind me and shoving it into my pocket.

I made my way Dow the street and crossed the road. I opened the front gate and closed it behind me. I walked up the same path as I have done since I was little.

The grass has been freshly cut. The flowers that run along the inside of the fence around the front lawn are healthy.

I place my hand on the black oak door, I took in a shaky breath and knocked the door. I knocked again and had no answer, as I was about to knock the third time the door opened.

His sea blue eyes full of sleep and begs underneath, jogging bottoms cling onto his legs as a light grey t-shirt covered his torso.

"Niall?" I said my voice full of worry, concern and confusion.

"Hey toots" his voice full of sleep

"Sorry I woke you"

I walked up to Niall and wrapped my arms around him as he shut the front door. I spun us around so I was walking backwards and lead us to the sofa.

Niall's mom, Clare, was in the open kitchen making some sort of soup, she looked up at me and Niall and gave us a heart worming smile.

"Good Afternoon Clare" I say as Niall falls back on to the sofa. I grab the blanket off the back of the sofa and placed it on Niall as he starts to fall back to sleep. I walk into the kitchen to Clare to help her make what ever she's making.

"You feeling better Liv?"

"Yes thank you, It was just all the stress from Bella really, it was a lot to handle"

"I bet it was, Niall told me everything, you don't understand how much that boy was worried about you. He talks about you non stop, he really does love you"

"I know he does. I feel really bad for bringing Niall into what happened with Bella and I want to make it up to him but I have no idea how to or what to do" I say honestly. I really want to make it up to Niall and to thank him for being there for me but I have no idea how to. I was thinking about booking a holiday but I don't have enough money to do so.

"honey you don't need to do that,  the best thing that you can do for him is by being yourself and keep loving him like you do"

"I am, I know that and you know and he knows how much I love him. I would give up anything for him. But he's special to me, he  makes my world complete, he's the light to my life, he's the reason that I wake up in the morning he's the reason why I got through my fathers death. He's always been the one. The one from the start" Tears are starting to brim in my eyes and I'm trying my best to keep them at bay.

"I love him with my whole life and I don't know what I will or would do without him, I've loved him from the start. From when we had that pretend wedding in nursery. I've loved him my whole life"

The tears that were brimming have made their way down my cheeks and my visions blurred with tears. I can see Clare doing the same, she has tears falling down her cheeks at the same pace as mine. I walk around the counter where she opens her arms for me and I walk straight into them, I hold her in a tight hug as she does the same to me. She rests her cheek on my head as mine in on her chest.

Clare is like my other mom, she can see right through me, she can tell when there's something wrong, she can tell when I'm down and when I'm happy.  She holds me when I cry, she will drop everything for me and I would do the same for her and her son.

"Liv that was the sweetest and cutest thing that I've ever heard. I think my heart has melted". We both burst out in a cry laugh.

After about an hour we finally finish the tomato soup.  Me and Clare talked about shopping and cloths that we need. She said that she'd take me out shopping Thursday and she wouldn't take no for an answer. Niall is still asleep on the sofa so it gives Clare and I some time to pop out.

I asked Clare if she would take me to Niall's favourite store and to smiths so I can get some things for Niall. Niall's favourite store is Luke. All of his cloths are from there and I have to be honest I really do like their cloths, I did think about going to buy some cloths from there but it would just look weird so instead I keep taking Niall's because they are much better because it smells like him.

We pull up to the store and I jump out the car whilst Clare goes and finds a parking space. I walk into the store and am amazed with how many people are here, I decided to take one of Niall's caps because it had gotten really sunny out, I lowered it on my head hoping that no one will recognise me seems that there is a fare few people in here that I know.

Clare came through the doors and pulled me hand and lead me to the other side of the shop where the cloths Niall loves are. I see some jackets that look really nice but I know as soon as Niall wares is a couple of time I'm going to end up taking it. I moved over to where some jeans were and I picked the light denim ripped and black skinny jeans up and placed them in the basket. I decided on getting him a matching denim jacket to go with the jeans, I also picket up a pink hoodie that had little rips on them. I made my way to the till and paid.

We quickly drove to smiths and ran in, I already knew what I wanted to get him. I was going to get him a bear. I got to the bear section and picket up the cutest one. I ran to the tills and paid and ran back into the car.