Mistaken identity. Unreciprocated first love. Worst first impression. All the bad ingredients that connected Qing and Dayu's fate together. Both of them thought they chose the other one, for obvious reasons. But only one of them got it right. The ot...
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Qing's POV
Good. Dayu didn't get angry. He just blushed furiously and stared at me without saying anything.
I swear to God- Feng JianYu is at his most beautiful when he's blushing like this. And my hungry hearts and body almost lost its will to stay sane.
But, my will to make it clear between us; is stronger than anything else right now. I will be damned if I screwed this now. Even my father in law; is on my side already.
"Let's date...Be my boyfriend...My lover..." I could phrase these better; I know. But, my reasoning, my clever vocabulary doesn't always agree with me where Dayu is concerned.
I know tons of pick up lines; I've been picking up girls ever since middle school; but, when it comes to Dayu, my brain doesn't always work. I could only be honest with him. No pretense whatsoever. That's why sometimes, I sounded blunt and unromantic. That had always been the case with Dayu; not only now but in the two years we were together before. Especially in this situation that I'm in at the moment; where I'm flustered and nervous; waiting for Dayu's reply.
I knew I got him flustered; I literally saw his face turned beet red and then, he froze as our eyes met. Disbelief flashed in his eyes but there's also something else in there that he's not even bothering to conceal anymore.
"What are you saying?" After a few minutes of complete silence, Dayu finally hissed, still looking at me with the same expression.
"I want to be your boyfriend. Your lover..." I repeated, without changing my tone. Although, I think I am trembling a little visibly this time.
And I saw Dayu's cheeks blushed even more.
"You know how I feel about you..." even though he still doesn't believe me, "and I know that you want me.." I cannot say that I know that Dayu loved me, not at the moment, because I really don't know for sure. But what I'm sure is; he wants me. And I want him too. This feeling, is at least, mutual. And I am sure of it. And he's not contradicting my conclusion.
"Fine..." Dayu said, under his breath, so quietly that if I hadn't paid attention to him 100% I might have missed it. I gasped, my grip on his arms tightened, "what..? Make it clear to me, Dayu...I need more than that..!" This time I'm the one hissing at him.
He's not going to get himself out of this. I've heard him say, 'fine' but that's not enough.
"I said, fine.." Dayu hissed back, facing me, with his reddening face bravely. "You're right..I do want you.." he paused, almost chickening out, by looking away because he looked so shy but, he stayed on, looking at me eye to eye.
"I don't know about your other 'feelings' but, I can't deny that you've changed.." Dayu took a deep breath and then he charged on, "but, if we're really going to do this..."
I am clearly trembling now; I have heard Dayu made it clear to me that he meant what he's saying, he's acknowledging part of my feelings, he's accepting me to be his boyfriend and lover; I am so overjoyed that all I could think of is to kiss him but, alas, he's still talking. There are still things that he wanted to say. And I'm not going cut him off.
Even though, it's taking a toll out of my self control. I'm still keeping my urges in tight leash.
"If we're really going to do this...I will be selfish this time.."
I blinked at Dayu. Selfish? Did he just said that he'd be selfish with me?
"Yeah- of course!" I have no problem with him being selfish with me- what!? That's what I want him to do. I am his. "Be selfish all you want with me!"
"Even if you found someone you wanted more than me...I won't promise you that I'd bow away gracefully like three years ago..." Dayu said, seriously, as if giving me a warning.
"First of all- you are my goal, Feng JianYu. There's nobody I would ever want more than you..." His words reeled me a little, but I get it that he's still doubting me, "now...let me give it back to you...I will also be selfish.." well, there's no need to tell Dayu this because he already knew how possessive I would be when it comes to him, but I am going to tell him anyway, "you will not be looking at another man other me. I will not let you..."
And then, Dayu and I had another 'staring' session, whilst the air around us became heavy with unspoken emotions.
"So..It's clear right?" He asked several minutes later.
"Yeah, it's clear to me..Is it clear for you as well?" I asked him back.
"Yes." He nodded, "it's clear."
"I will kiss you now.." I think this is long overdue. We should have kissed half an hour ago.
But, because of how much I wanted Dayu to take me and our relationship seriously, I am not going to rush Dayu into even a kiss.
I'm a changed man. I'm a better man. And I'm in love with him. For real.
To my surprise, Dayu moved his hands, and then his fingers were on my face. And he's trembling as well. His fingers were cold on my skin, but amazingly I felt a trail of fire everywhere he touched me.
I saw his eyes fell to my lips and of course I automatically looked at his mouth as well. His pair of luscious pink lips were slightly parted; as if inviting me to come into his mouth.
"Then, kiss me.." Dayu's voice was also trembling by now; and this made everything more real. We are a couple now. He had really accepted me.
I moved my hands from Dayu's arms to his face, forcing him to meet my eyes once again, "I love you." Before Dayu could react to it, I bent and took his mouth with mine.
I closed my eyes and completely used my whole senses to feel the kiss. I savored the taste of his lips; soft, sweet and delicious. It started off as a tender and gentle kiss; where both of us seemed to want to get to know how the other feels like, savoring each other's taste. Then, I felt Dayu's hands went around my body, gripping my back. And my desire finally got the better of me.
I deepened the kiss, and took him by surprise. He gasped a little, and he opened his eyes a little; at the same time that I was looking at him and I let him see the fiery passion in my eyes. I half expected him to pull away but, he didn't. Thank God! Instead of doing that, he actually gripped my back tighter.
I growled and I kissed him again. This time, it's a passionate kiss from the start. I've been starved for a taste of him and I'm taking my fill of him now, to my heart's content.
Sometime in the middle we both pulled away a little, gasping for breath, and I delved back into his mouth with my tongue after that. I left his mouth minutes later only to give my attention to his neck.
We were both breathing in short, sharp gasps ; and I could also hear two sets of heart beating wildly between us. Dayu began moaning and whimpering as I trailed kisses and bites down from the sides of his jaw to his neck and his exposed upper chest. My hands were inside his shirt, touching him hungrily.
It had been such a long time since I felt his body in my arms like this. And I hadn't even forgotten his taste and his feels ; not even a little.
With the last ounce of my control; I pulled away from him, and forced him to look at me one last time; I really had to ask him this, before I really lost my head completely.
"I'm going to make love to you. So, if you don't want this, tell me now. There's no going back after this."
This time, Dayu didn't even hesitate, he pulled me back to him, and kissed me, "let's do it..."
