Learning to trust: My journal

This is my life

  September 27, 2018

Have you ever felt all alone, or like you don't want to get out of bed in the morning? This is how I feel on a daily basis. I feel tired of school and of not feeling valued by friends. I worry about what people think of me and if I fit in. I worry about something happening to a good friend or family member. I fear situations in which I think I will fail. This is what anxiety feels like. 

 I have almost constant fear and worry. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm worrying about but I'm still anxious about something. The one amazing thing is that I have amazing mentors that give me advice and an all powerful God who knows every fear and worry I have. He knows all my hopes and dreams. He is bigger than I can even imagine. So why do I worry about things? why do I not trust him with my life and give him all my problems. My life would be so much easier if I only did that. I'm working on it, but most days I keep it in my hands instead of surrendering it into his hands that can hold so much more than mine. I have to remember Hebrews 13:5 "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."

 Signed, Emmers