Learning to trust: My journal

Thankful for...

 October 16, 2019

 Hi everyone! So this weekend was thanksgiving (for us here in Canada anyways) and I was thinking about how I could remember writing my thanksgiving update this time last year. Man have things changed so much over this whole year. I was baptised in spring and have improved so much in controlling my anxiety/trusting God. Looking at my posts from last year I can see how much of a different person I am. God has changed me and has used my struggles to help others through their struggles. I have not yet reached full victory over my anxiety (I don't think I ever will) but I think I'm ok with that. 

 I think that my anxiety has actually been a blessing in some ways. I have been able to learn to be open with others and have found some of my best friends through this hard time. I have given others help because I know their struggle. I can show others that it is possible to overcome seemingly impossible things. I can show others that even though that anxiety still tries to creep in and steal my trust, with God I can still make it through. So in a way I am thankful that I have anxiety. Although it really sucks and I hate it in the moment, in the long run I have been able to use it as a tool for witnessing to others. It makes my story all the more relatable to some people. 

 So this thanksgiving I am so very thankful that God has taken me down this hard long road because it lead me back to him and also to a whole bunch of people I am so very thankful for. I couldn't have asked for a better journey (although I have asked God to just take it away many many times). Thank you God for giving me these people and helping me through each day!

 -Emmers