Learning to trust: My journal

My week

 Thursday, May 2, 2019

 Hi again everyone! So today's post is going to be about my past week since a lot has happened lately. So lets start with Sunday. I was baptised on Sunday which was super exciting! I got so see some people that I hadn't seen in a while because I had invited them to come see my baptism. It was a great day but also a really tiring day. I had a party in the evening with both sides of my family and many of my friends as well. So being an introvert I was exhausted by the end of the day. 

 Monday came with school and that was fine. I didn't really want to go back after my great weekend (as usual) so Monday was kind of sucky. Tuesday was kind of the same. Wednesday we had a half day  which was crazy because I had 5 half hour classes jammed into my morning. During fifth period I had a jazz choir performance thing (kind of just for my teacher and class) which went well for me. Then about half way through that class, one of the girls in my jazz choir walked out and I could tell she was having a panic attack. I went out to comfort her which was kind of hard because I'm a Christian and she isn't. So I tried to comfort her as best as I could and encourage her. After I was kind of glad this happened because I got to use some of the things I've learned from some mentors and use it to help someone else. I also kind of got to share some stuff about what God thinks about us and how he sees us. It was a bit awkward at first cuz I've never really had to do this while someone has been having a panic attack.

 This was a huge learning experience for me. I had to learn how to show a nonbeliever what it means to trust God whole heartedly and give him everything while freaking out completely. I also had to keep myself from crying (which is extremely hard for me to do cuz I express emotion very easily!). Surprisingly I kept it together the whole time and didn't even feel like I wanted to cry! I don't think I've ever been able to do that before!  

 Wednesday evening I had youth and we went to a city wide youth worship night. I loved it cuz we did a bunch of singing which is my absolute favourite! Today during lunch we had "Sky terminal" come sing at my school for our Lighthouse program. Many new people came today which was amazing (we haven't had a lot of attendance during our bible studies lately so it was cool to see some new people come join us). It was a great lunch hour of praising God and connecting as a group. That brings me to now. Me writing here on Wattpad. This week has been crazy and fun all at the same time. God has been using me to help others this week just after being baptised which is super awesome. I'm so thankful that God is continuing to make me a vessel for him, using me to show his love. I hope he uses all y'all in amazing ways in the weeks, months and years ahead.

 -Emmers