Learning to trust: My journal

Stress?

 April 16, 2019

 Hi everyone! Today we are talking about stress. Who has stress in their life? Umm, I think all of us have some sort of stress in our life. It could be school, friends, parents... you name it. But why are we stressed? Why do we worry about all the little things in our day. 

 As most of you know (from reading this blog thing) I deal with anxiety. It's not bad anymore but it still is there. I can freak out from the smallest things, from being worried about if I did well on that French quiz I had no idea was going to happen to worrying if I will see my friends from camp again. I worry about little things and small things. This wears me out pretty quickly. I'm also an introvert so after a long day of school and people, I'm pretty tired out. The last thing I need is to worry about everything going on. 

 When my anxiety kind of peaked, I was not close to God at all. I wasn't doing my devotions, I stopped praying, I felt ashamed to talk to him because I had ignored him for so long. This was the root cause of my anxiety, the devil was using my stress to pull me further away from God. And I believed the devil for a long time. I believed that I wasn't good enough and that God didn't love as much anymore. Then one day I had had enough. I emailed my LDP leader and asked her what I should do. She told me to READ MY BIBLE! Duh, that's kind of obvious but I was so anxious about everything that I thought there was something I had to do first before God wanted me to come to him. But god wanted me to just give it all to him then I would feel so much better. So I started to read my bible and pray and tell God how I felt. About a week after I started I was feeling a lot less stressed about everything and felt more free. 

If you are feeling stressed or that anxiety just won't leave you, go to God. He loves you. He WILL carry your burdens. He WANTS to carry your burdens. He WILL help you. You are never to far  away to come back to God. 

 -Emmers