Learning to trust: My journal

The Peace of God!

 October 24, 2018 

 Hi all. I know it's been a while since I've updated this thing but I've been busy with school and getting ready for some bible study stuff that I spoke on yesterday with one of my friends. Yeah I know, the girl with anxiety speaking in front of a bunch of people. Kinda unexpected. I didn't think I was exactly cut out for it either but I've always liked talking and stuff like that but this was a big step for me. It was also good practice for when I lead a bible study at my youth in December. Don't worry, I'll be talking about that more in future entries. 

 So yesterday was crazy, trying to finish some last minute details with the bible study and freaking out before I spoke. as I waited to start speaking, I was pacing a lot cuz that's what I do when I'm anxious or stressed. Then while one of the girls from our group prayed, I silently said my own little prayer. I asked God to give me peace and to help me get through this. Then once I started reading the passage, I realised that I wasn't nervous anymore. I wasn't shaking or stumbling over my words! I was amazed and so happy to not feel so freaked out! I hadn't felt so peaceful and calm for quite a while.

 Peace is such an amazing thing to me. I rarely am at peace about anything, especially about a stressful situation where I think I will fail, but God showed me his power over my anxiety through the peace he gave me. And oh what an amazing feeling that is.  

 -Emmers