December 18, 2018
Yesterday I was feeling really low. I felt anxious for no reason and felt very sick when I got home from school. All I wanted to do was sit in my room and do nothing. That's exactly what I did till supper time. I had ZERO motivation to do anything. I was tired, anxious, bored and kinda grumpy.
That evening, I sat in my room before I went to bed and wrote in my prayer journal. I asked God to give me joy in my life again. I was sick of feeling so purposeless and gloomy. It's almost Christmas and this should be one of the happiest times of the year. I just knew that if I didn't do something about it, depression and anxiety could possibly take over. I didn't want that especially at Christmas.
This morning I woke up and was HYPER! I was so excited about everything. Even putting on my socks was exciting! (I just got cool socks with hamburgers and fries that I planned on wearing today). My mom was super surprised when I came downstairs and wasn't tired (I am very tired almost everyday and I am hardly even awake). I felt sooooo good this morning!
Once I got to school I realized that God had answered my prayer for joy. He allowed me to feel rested and motivated so that I could actually enjoy going through my day. Joy finally came and let's hope it's here to stay. Today has reminded me of the song by for King And Country. It's called "Joy". It totally describes how I was feeling yesterday and helps me feel so much better and joyful. I would totally recommend listening to it. It helps me focus on where our ultimate joy should come from, GOD. If you're going through a time of depression, anxiety or just feeling purposeless, go to God and ask him to give you the joy from him.
-Emmers
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Learning to trust: My journal
SpiritualThis is my journal of my life with anxiety, to give those of you who don't know what it feels like a glimpse of how it feels. I will also be giving some encouragement on certain topics that I'm learning about or experiencing. Hope you like it!
