November 22, 2018
As it says on my home page, I LOVE music and play multiple instruments. Music is another way I escape. It has gotten me through a lot of hard times and is a way for me to relieve my anxiety. I connect with God in a way I don't any other time.
This past week I have started playing the ukulele. I'm learning quite quickly, probably because I already know how to play guitar. The reason I started playing ukulele is because since I cut my finger really badly, I haven't been able to play guitar properly without my finger hurting insanely. Playing ukulele means I don't exactly have to use my pointer finger on my left hand. I only have to use the three other fingers to play!
When I started to realize that I might have to teach myself how to play guitar with only three fingers, I was a bit angry at God. Why couldn't he have just made it so that I didn't have my finger right there when I closed that door? Or why can't he just heal my finger to how it used to be? One time I actually started crying because I was so angry that I couldn't do something I love. While I sat there asking God "WHY?" I remembered one of my favourite songs, It is well by Kristene Dimarco. It helped me remember that God is with me through everything and that through it all my eyes can look to him and find hope.
Music can bring so much joy and hope when I feel so hopeless or sad. God made music to glorify himself and point us back to him!
Samuel 22:50 "Therefore I will praise you, LORD, among the nations; I will sing the praises of your name. "
-Emmers
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