Wednesday, December 18, 2019
Hi y'all. So for the past 2 days I've been feeling a significant amount of anxiety again. I honestly have no idea why and I'm really hating it. It seems to be that it starts on the bus on my way to school then stays till around 6th period (last period of my day). I really have no clue about why I feel like this and it would help a lot to know what is causing this.
I have been, for the most part, free from my anxiety for quite a while now, which is why this is such an annoying thing. I want it to go away and stay away forever. That would be the best thing, honestly. I don't understand why God is allowing me to feel this again. I have been trusting him, trying to do my devotions everyday and talking to him about my feelings and thoughts. It really feels like I'm far away from him again.
I'm honestly sick of fighting my thoughts. Sick of fighting the devil. Just sick of fighting in general. I want some peace, some time to have nothing go wrong in my life. I want the trials to be gone. But in reality, we will never get that in this life. The only way we can get that life is in heaven. We can only find that life in Jesus but only find the perfection in heaven. So I guess I'll have to wait for heaven.
-Emmers
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Learning to trust: My journal
SpiritualThis is my journal of my life with anxiety, to give those of you who don't know what it feels like a glimpse of how it feels. I will also be giving some encouragement on certain topics that I'm learning about or experiencing. Hope you like it!
