Dec. 13, 2013
Dear Diary,
I skated at my first game tonight after taking some time off. The Pens won 3-2 against New Jersey. Sid has been playing well despite what happened. He has been so protective of me, though. I wanted to skate at Monday’s game against Columbus, which they also won, but he said I should wait. I think he’s waiting for me to fall apart, however I just feel numb.
Caeleigh was starting to get suspicious of my behavior. She asked me at practice on Wednesday if I wanted to see the new Hunger Games movie, and I said ‘maybe.’ This made her mad.
“What is wrong with you? You love the Hunger Games,” she said pushing me.
“I don’t know, I’m just tired. I have homework.” I said and skated away.
I do have a lot of homework, or I did a least. I’ve handed in both of my final papers and I’m done with school until the end of January. I don’t know if I want to continue my studies though, I’m not even sure why I’m still in school.
Yesterday Caeleigh and I went to the mall to go Christmas shopping. She talked most of the time, but finally stopped when she realized I wasn’t responding.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” She asked stopping to look at me.
“I don’t know what to get Sid for Christmas.” It’s true, I don’t, but that’s not what’s bothering me.
“No, it’s more than that,” she said looking down at me. She always wears heels now (for Geno), and even though she’s always been a few inches taller than me I feel really short now.
“No, really, what do you get a guy who has everything? And we’ve been through something difficult recently, so I want to get him something nice,” I explained, but immediately regretted adding the second part.
“What happened?” She asked, sitting down on a bench.
“Um,” I sat down and looked around. There were a bunch of old people, but other than that the mall was pretty quiet. “It’s kind of hard to explain.”
“What’s wrong Emme?” She said moving closer.
“I was pregnant.” I said, not looking at her.
“What?!” She tried not to scream, “You were pregnant? What happened?”
“I didn’t know that I was, and I guess I had a miscarriage,” I took a deep breath before continuing, “I somehow took my medicine wrong when I first transitioned to it from my old medicine, and I got pregnant.”
“Wait, that was over two months ago, that’s a long time,” she said starting to look worried, “also, don’t they have to, like, remove the fetus after it dies? I saw an episode of Grey’s Anatomy where this lady had to give birth to her dead baby.”
I laughed, “that’s great, talk about dead babies with your friend who just had a miscarriage. No, my doctor said it’s so small it doesn’t matter, it’ll just go away or something.”
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said that,” she said putting her hand on my shoulder.
“It’s okay, I’m not actually that upset about it. I’m just happy I’m not pregnant. I think Sid was really bothered by it,” I said, “I think that’s something he would have wanted, even if it was an accident.”
“Wow,” she said and thought for a minute, “I don’t know what I would do if Geno knocked me up.”
“You guys would have weird ginger Russian babies,” I said laughing.
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The Diary of an Unintentional Puck Slut
FanfictionEmmeline (Emme) Saxon moves to Pittsburgh from Maine after graduating from UMaine to become an ice girl for the Penguins. Ice girls are now required to figure skate at intermission, sort of like a half time show, like cheer leaders kind of. When Emm...