You are mine ~ Bennoda ✔️

••• 13. Are you Okay? •••

Mike's PoV

I woke up to see Chester, who was still asleep. I quietly got out of bed and stretched.

I started walking towards the dresser to grab some clothes, but when I walked passed the desk, I noticed Chester's note book. I mean... should I? It was open on a page... it's just one page right?

"I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared. But no one would listen, cause no one else cared. After my dreaming, I woke with this fear, what am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me I want you to know. When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. And don't resent me, And when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest.

Leave out all the rest."

Wow... is he okay?

I know I shouldn't, but, I turned to the next page.

"Should've stayed were the signs, I ignored? Can I help you not to hurt anymore? We saw brilliance when the world, was a sleep. There are things that we can have, but can't keep.

If they say, Who cares if one more light goes out? in the sky of a million stars.It flickers, flickers, who cares if someone's time runs out? When a moment is all we are. Or quicker, quicker, who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do."

I turned to the next page, this one... was, really really dark.

"I don't like my mind right now. Wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic.

I'm holding on. Why is everything so heavy? Holding on to so much more then I can carry. I keep dragging around what's bringing me down.

If I'd just let go I'd be set free.

You say that I'm paranoid, but I'm pretty sure, the world is out to get me. It's not like I made the choice, to let my mind stay so fucking messy."

Then there was a page that looked like a journal fragment or something.

"I wonder if I am turning paranoid. Maybe Mike is right. I've always been fucking paranoid. Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I am like this. No wonder why it seems like Mike doesn't love me as much as he used to. I'm getting annoying again. It always happens. Fuck life. Fuck everything. Just.... fuck."

I heard Chester moving around in the bed. I quickly closed the book.

"Y-you were reading that?" Chester spoke up. I froze "I-I uh..." "those were private things Mike... most of them were private."

"I'm sorry, you left it open and I just.." i didn't know what to say. "It's fine Mikey. Just.. don't do it again.". Chester always forgives so easy. How?

"Uh.. okay, I love you babe." "Love you too."

I checked my phone.

Phoenix: MIKEYYYYY

Phoenix: To the studio AND BEYOOOND... with Chazzy, Don't forget Chaz.

Brad Bourdon: Mike, Get to da studio! We got food! :D

LINKIN PARK:

Rob: Brad seriously, stop randomly breaking in!!!

Brad Bourdon: Bourdelson shall be reaaall. Remember what we said? When Bennoda would be real, then we'd go for Bourdelson.