You are mine ~ Bennoda ✔️

••• 30. Love •••

He's right tho. We aren't together anymore. If I just didn't decide to listen to Cora. Would Chester be dead then? What if she would've actually killed him?

I wouldn't be able to live without Chester alive. But, I don't want to live without him. I want him to be with me forever.

I don't want to live without Chester.

—

We were back on the tourbus and I was going to sleep for a bit.

Mike's dream:

I walked back to the hotel room after the show. As I entered the room, The entire scene was the same as that night, But the bed looked, different...

Between all the roses and candles was Chester, He had a bullet hole in his chest... I ran towards him.

"Chester!! Chaz! Oh god no.. no!" I sobbed. Chester was struggling to breathe "Goodbye Micheal.." he managed as he took his last breath. When he died, he looked, relieved and peaceful... almost happy..

I sobbed uncontrollably, then I snapped awake, I was relieved, It was all just a dream.. I was now... Back in the hotel room in Amsterdam.. the candles and roses were there again, but the candles were burned out. It was morning... I turned around In the bed, Cora was there... We both weren't wearing any clothes... I was startled and fell out of the bed. I had to find Chester! What if he found out?

I put on clothes and ran out of the door. Chester was there.

"Chester?"

"Good morning Mike! How are you?"

"I'm okay.. I think.. you?"

"Well, at least one of us is okay."

"What? What do you mean, Chaz?"

"You ruined me Mike. You destroyed my life!"

I couldn't handle this anymore, I started running. I heard people calling me.

"Mike! Mike! Mike!"

End of Mike's dream.

"Mike! Wake up man." I heard Dave. My eyes opened quickly and widely.

"Chester?!" I said, Looking around. Chester can't be gone..

"Calm down, Chester's just playing a video game with Joe and Brad." Dave said. I sighed in relief. Chester's fine. Well, alive. Then I remembered, the look on his face when he died in my dream... happy, relieved and peaceful.

"D-Dave?" I started. Dave nodded "yeah Mike? What's up?"

"Are you like, scared that.. uhm.. that Chester will, hurt himself? Or like... do something to himself?" I asked, looking down.

Dave sighed and sat down next to me "of course but, I don't think he will... Chester uh.. Chester wouldn't leave all this behind right?" Dave sounded unsure.. but I believed him. Chester wouldn't.. but thinking of it, maybe I would. I don't want a life without Chester.

I started crying, i don't want a life without Chester. I need him. Without him, I don't want to be here.

"Dave.. I-I.." I started sobbing, I wanted to tell him how I felt but... I also didn't want to. "It's okay Mike, you can tell me anything."

"I-I can't.. I just can't do it Dave.."

"Do What?"

"Live without him.. I need him.."

"Mike.. uh.. T-Think about this man.. w-we need you.. w-we all care so much about you.." Dave was surprised and scared.

"He doesn't care Dave."

"He does! Remember how he hid his sadness to keep you 'happy', Chester cares about you, of course he does. He keeps telling us how he still loves you and that he wants you to be with him."

"R-really?"

Dave nodded. So, Chester did still love me? Maybe... Maybe we can get back together? Maybe, Things will go back to normal.

Chester's PoV

It's not Like I didn't notice it.. I mean, how could I not? Mike's hurting a lot. He looks so, depressed. We both want each other back but at the same time I'm still kinda angry. But I love him and... maybe he had a reason to.. maybe, he Did have a good reason.

I walked to where Dave and Mike were sitting, and asked "Mike?" As soon as I said his name, Mike's eyes met mine and the eyes that were usually, happy, and glowing, were now dull and broken. But I could see a glimpse of hope.

"Can we like uh.. Talk? Maybe tonight or whenever you have time." I said. Let's hope I won't regret this..

—

8 pm

After going out to eat dinner with the guys, we arrived back at the bus and Dave asked Rob, Brad and Joe to help him with getting some food and drinks on the bus, so they were at the store now.

Mike and I sat at the small table, across each other.

"S-so uhm... what did you want to talk about?" Mike asked, obviously nervous.

"What happened that night, Mike? Help me understand." I nearly grabbed his hand but decided against it.

Mike sighed and started explaining exactly what happened. Why didn't I hear him out in the first place?! God I'm so stupid! He did it to protect me. He didn't love Cora! But was he being honest now?

"A-are you serious? Is this what happened? She made you do this? Because she'd kill me if you didn't?"

Mike nodded and looked down "please Ches.. please forgive me.. Please. I need you back, I can't go on without you." He started crying.

I now grabbed Mike's hands and rubbed my thumbs over his palms "hey, Mike.. Mikey.. calm down, I love you.." his face lit up as I said that I loved him. "And... I think, I can actually forgive you. You did this for me. Hell, I'm the one that should ask for your forgiveness."

"R-really?! Y-you, you really forgive me?" Mike said, his voice shaky from crying.

"Yes Mike. I do." I said. And I really did. I want him back.

Then Mike reached into his pocked and pulled out a shiny ring, my wedding ring. He kept it with him. He held it up and smiled "Chester Bennington, will you be my husband again?"

I laughed a little and nodded, letting him put the ring back around my finger, where it belongs.