You are mine ~ Bennoda ✔️

••• 29. I miss you so •••

"Smoke another cigarette it kills the pain that's all that's left of me anymore. Choke on all of my regrets feeling the strain in every breath stumble as I crawl."

God I hope Chester didn't start smoking again. It wasn't easy to get him out of that habit.

"Then I fall, into you, and I fade away. I fall, into you, and I fade."

His voice was perfect. But there was a hurt tone this time, I did that. I hurt him.

—

He got near the end of the song.

"You said time to tear down the walls, you know not everything's your fault, but in a way, our mistakes have brought us here today!"

I was trying not to break down. Cmon Mike, not on stage!

"You say just look how far you've come, Despite! All those things you've done. You'll always be the one, to catch me when I fall! Into you! And I fade away! I fall! Into you. And I fade."

Now there were tears down my face. But I wiped them away so no one could see.

Then Chester's eyes met mine as he sung.

"Say goodbye to yesterday, I made it through I'm here today, despite what I was told, you were there to rescue me, you shine your light so I could see..."

He looked down and I could see he was getting sad too. But then the song finished and 'given up' was next.

—

"Put me out of my misery! Put me out of my misery!! Put me out of my! Put me out of my fucking misery!"

Chester held the last scream longer then he was supposed to, and he sang with way more aggression then usual. Way more emotions. It was getting pretty scary. He'd been like this for nearly the entire performance.

—

After the show, I got to my, sad and lonely hotel room. I was hoping I'd be alone.. but guess who the fuck was there?

"Cora get out."

Cora pouted and got closer to me and tried to kiss me, I pushed her away. "What part of get out don't you understand?"

After 5 minutes

"Mikey! Please! Stop lying! You know you love me!"

"I don't! I never did and never will so leave me alone!"

"Why can't you love me?!"

"BECAUSE YOU RUINED MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HE PERSON I LOVE THE MOST!" I screamed. She ruined me and Chester. She destroyed us. Crushed us out of selfishness and greed.

"Oh, and who was this Person, Micheal." She said with that scary tone.

"It doesn't matter anymore. He doesn't want me anymore.."

"He?!"

"Yes, He."

"Oh, no,no,no, Mikey, you're so confused aren't you? You like girls, Like me!"