You are mine ~ Bennoda ✔️

••• 34. say what I don't mean •••

Mike's PoV

I woke up half on top of Chester, he was sleeping peacefully anyways. I admired his beautiful face, something I seem to do a lot. I used to draw him in high school a lot. I even painted him for a school project... even though people made fun of me for that.. and someone ended up destroying it.

As I got of him, he frowned and started turning around, looking uncomfortable. "M-Mike.." he mumbled in his sleep "don't go.." he whispered, as he shifted uncomfortably. I grabbed his hand and held it tightly, bringing it up to my lips and kissing it softly, I whispered "I'm here, Chaz." he calmed down instantly. What was he dreaming about?

"Mike no, not you, no, NO!" He shot awake. "Chester, Chaz, hey, I'm here. Ssh.." I placed his head on my neck and rubbed his back comfortingly as I felt tears, falling onto my shirt. After he calmed down, I asked what was wrong.

"She killed you." He said.

Who? Cora? Now he's having nightmares about her? "It's okay Chaz, I'm here. She won't hurt us."

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We were now packing everything. We were leaving Japan to go to South Korea, I can't believe the tours nearly over. Lots of things have happened, I can't believe I nearly lost Chester. But it's okay, It's in the past now. We're still together.

Chester's PoV

I headed toward the airport with the rest of the guys. Mike kept nearly holding my hand, but people can't know. So I kept rejecting his hand. Eventually Mike spoke up to me "Ches, you still don't want people to know? We've been together since we were in high school, what's the deal?"

"I-I don't want our relationship to effect the band." I said, looking away in embarrassment. Mike sighed "why? It seems like your embarrassed about our relationship."

"I'm not Mike." I sighed "let's not have this talk right now.. please."

"No, Let's talk about this. Right. Now." Mike said. I sighed "Mike we are in public." "So what?!" "Mike, Stop!" "No Chester, you stop pretending like we're nothing!"

"Enough!" Rob said, with a strong tone. The one He only uses when he's angry or annoyed.

We both stopped in an instant.

I sighed, Mike tried to grab my hand put I pulled away again, this time, less careful. Mike just sighed and shook his head. We were doing so good damn it.

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In the airplane.

"Mike, Knock it off!" I whispered. Mike wouldn't stop trying to touch me. "Come on Chaz, don't you want me to touch you now?" Mike whispered "3 days ago you desperately wanted me to."

Dave sighed "don't remind me. I think the entire hotel knew that Chester wanted you to touch him."

Brad laughed "You guys have so much se-"

"Brad shut it." Mike said.

I sighed deeply and plugged in my earbuds as I played music and 'isolated' myself from everyone.

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At the hotel in South Korea.

"Mike! Shut the fuck up! We've been keeping our relationship like this for years! What makes it any different?!" I yelled.

"Now you're less of a weak fuck!" Mike hissed.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?!"

"Face it Chaz. You were a weak. The only reason why you're still here is because I saved you that day, the day you tried to end it all. you're still here because of me."

I couldn't think clearly, before I knew it, I said something I didn't mean "I wish you didn't save me that day!"

"Chester..." Mike whispered as his eyes started watering "why'd you say that?"

He doesn't even like me anymore. But that's what happens in your life Chester. People like you for a while, then they slowly realise what a fuck up you are.

Then I realised...

"You did it to yourself." I said.

"What?" Mike looked up, confused.

"I know I'm starting to bother you Mike, but you could've let me die that day."

"Chester wh-"

"You did it to yourself!" I yelled.

Mike yelled back, making me enabled to say anything to interrupt him "Chester fucking Bennington! I love you more then anything and I can never get tired of you! Now stop! Please just know that I love you with all my heart! You say I did it to myself?! Then I did myself a huge favour, because now, I have the best husband I could ask for! I have an amazing family! I have a great job! And I have someone I can love forever, no matter what. That's you Chester. I will love you, no matter what happens."

I felt weak, I fell to my knees and started crying. I got so mad I didn't know what I said anymore.

My mouth kept moving, but my mind went dead. But I could hear every word of what Mike just said. Mike sat down next to me and we both cried.

Dave's PoV

Brad and I were going to Check on Mike and Chester, we heard yelling.. that's why Brad wanted to come along.

"I bet they're having sex again." Brad laughed.

I sighed "no, this sounded, angry.."

We entered their room to see Chester and Mike both crying on the floor, in each other's arms. They spoke in between sobs.

"I love you so much Mike."

"I know, I love you too Chester.. more then anything.."

"I never want to lose you."

"You won't.. I will always be here Mike."

I looked up at Brad again, and exhaled "okay..." I cleared my throat "Let's uh.. let them be."

We left the room again.

Mike's PoV

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The next morning.

I woke up on the bed, holding Chester tightly.

I love him. That's why I want our relationship to be public. So people can know just how much I love him. That no one's opinion can change that. I get why he's afraid. He's afraid that people will judge him negatively, that people will hurt him or me. Because that's all he's ever known. Hurt, pain, getting ridiculed, bullied, beaten, yelled at.

He's so strong. Even without me, he's so so strong. I know I told him he wouldn't be strong without me. But Chester's a strong, surviver. He's stronger then he gives himself credit for.

"Hey Mike." I heard Chester say.

"Hey Love."

"I'm sorry about yesterday... I didn't mean to get so mad at you."

"It's fine Chester, we both did regrettable things. You are strong Chaz, with or without me."

Chester smiled at me "thanks Mike.. oh and... thank you for saving me that night."

"You don't need to thank me for that. I'm so glad I did."

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Sorry this chapter sucked.