darling | brendon urie | sequel to "strawberries"

15: "thanks"

"mmm babe i gotta go" jessica pulled away, giggling.
"please stay" i begged as she put her bra on.
"gotta baby sit. i'll call you though" she replied as i clasped it for her.
"i love you" i said shyly.
"i love you too babygirl" she kissed me gently then slid on her underwear. i watched her every move... i was so in love with her.

i put on a big sweater and some shorts and walked her to the door once she was changed. i opened it and we kissed again.
"im sorry about before" i said.
"its okay. you're okay" she hugged me and headed out.
i closed the door, knowing i was going to cry. how could i put her through that? i only though of myself! i locked the door and felt two arms go around me.
lits okay" he said softy. i let the tears roll down my cheeks.
"i keep messing up" i wiped my tears and sniffled.
"it was a mistake. we all fuck ip@

the next day i woke up screaming. i bursted out crying and curled up into a ball sobbing. i could barely function anymore. i hated it. sarah calmed me and said she'd make me a drink while i had a shower.
i got dressed into an mcr sweater and leggings then i dried my hair and tied it back into a high ponytail. i went downstairs to see sarah had made me a smoothie. brendon was playing the piano and singing. i sat in the living room and watched.

how could one single person be so talented? the amount of passion in his eyes was unbelievable. he played the keys, sang the song...and had fun. this was brendons happy place.

but where was mine?

i had a few actually. with my dad, in the car. singing to songs on our way to my therapist. we'd laugh and at the ens have a big hug before we went inside.

with my girlfriend. her lips on mine, her arms round me tightly. not letting go at all. clothes or not, i felt safe. bed or bathroom, it was passionate and felt real.

with my best friend. colouring in, singing bring me the horizon songs and looking at photos of cats while we laughed at my attempts to not smile while listening to jumpsuit.

with sarah. crying on each other during movies and girly talks. clothes shopping before getting ice cream was pretty fun too.

"dylan???" brendon snapped his fingers in my face. i blinked rapidly and sat up. "whats up?" he asked.
"jus thinking" i rubbed my eyes. i tossed my cup away and threw my arms around brendon. "thanks"

"for what?"
"everything"