darling | brendon urie | sequel to "strawberries"

26: "i can't be with you right now"

"dylan!" brendon chased me round the house and i giggled. i may have replaced his liquid soap with green food dye...

"hey, you little asshole!" he grabbed me and whirled me round. we both laughed as he threw himself on the couch, me falling with him. "you are so naughty!" he said.
"i know" i giggled. he scoffed playfully.
"anything you wanna say?" he asked. i nodded and hugged him.
"im sorry" he hugged me back.
"thats my girl"
"im starving" i got up and went to get a snack. then there was a knock at the door.

"uh...jessicas here" brendon stammered. i dropped the chips and ran to hug her. then i stopped short when i saw red eyes. she took one look at me and started to sob.
"uh...i'll leave you both to it" brendon left awkwardly.

i let her sob into my shoulder for a bit then she got talking.
"my depressions gotten worse" she cried. "a-and my parents are sending me to a clinic in ohio" she sniffled. jessica was leaving.
"h-how long?"
"3 months"

3 months. 3 months without hearing her voice. 3 months without having her hugs. 3 months without sex.

3 months without her.

"a-and i really do want to go but it could help me. a lot" she sniffled.
"then go" i said, my eyes glassy.
"but i'd miss you" she sobbed. i hugged her.
"i know, i'll miss you too. but you gotta do whats best for you. and if that means not seeing me for three months then so be it" i said. "and i'll still be here. we're still us"
"about that..." i felt sick. she wiped her tears. "there's too much going on. and don't get me wrong, i love you so much. but...i can't be with you right now. dylan, i-i fucking love you. but...i need to focus on myself" she whispered.

jessica was breaking up with me.

"hey. its okay. your health matters more than our relationship. as long as you're okay, im happy" i said.
"you're not upset?" she asked.
"i am a little" tears rolled down my cheeks. "as i love you. but its okay because you'll be okay"
she pulled my lips onto hers. then she pulled away.
"my dads waiting. but i'll try to write to you or something" she hugged me. "i love you so much. you've made me so happy these past three years. and when im back maybe we can get back together" she said.
'i's love that" we hugged again. "bye brendon" she smiled at my dad.
"no hug?" he scoffed playfully. me and jessica giggled.

they shared a hug and she walked out of the door. she got into her dads car and blew me a kiss...then she was gone. brendon closed the door and threw his arms round me. i started to sob.
"im so proud of you" he said