darling | brendon urie | sequel to "strawberries"

39: "i want to be your girlfriend"

"can you guys just co operate!?" i exclaimed. we all laughed. justin, jessica and i were hanging out at my house. me and jessica are staying friends and she's okay with it and as am i. i didn't trust her but i didn't like grudges. i'd learnt a new song on my ukulele and was dying to show them!
"whats it called?" jessica asked, sucking her ice lolly.
"i want to be your girlfriend" i said.
"gay" justin coughed. we laughed again.

"Oh hannah
I wanna feel you close
Oh hannah
Come lie with my bones
Oh hannah
Don't look away
Oh hannah
Just look at me the same
I don't wanna be your friend
I wanna kiss your lips
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath
I don't wanna be your friend
I wanna kiss your lips
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath
Oh hannah
Tell me something nice
Like flowers and blue skies
Oh hannah
I will follow you home
Although my lips are blue and I'm cold
I don't wanna be your friend
I wanna kiss your lips
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath
I don't wanna be your friend
I wanna kiss your lips
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath
I don't wanna be your friend
I don't wanna be your friend
I wanna be your bitch
And I wanna touch you but not like this
The look in your eyes
My hand between your thighs
Oh this can't be real
It's all just a dream
I don't wanna be your friend
I wanna a kiss your lips
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath
I don't wanna be your friend
Lose my breath
I don't wanna be your friend
Lose my breath"

"who the fuck is hannah?" justin asked.
"its not my song!" i hit him playfully.
"its by girl in red" jessica told him.
"and she is so relatable" i sighed. jessica looked hopeful.
"we should go girlfriend hunting" justin said to me.
"agreed"

jessica went home soon enough. i planned to not invite her again as it was really awkward. justin and me went to get into our pajamas as he was staying the night. brendon and sarah were downstairs watching a movie. well they were making out. me and justin giggled as we got some snacks.

we went to my room and he put his head in my lap.
"you okay?" i asked. he started to trust me and told me lots of stuff.
"no, i wanna kiss a girl but none of them like me"
"i like you" i said.
"you're gay" he pointed out.
"so? im allowed to kiss my best friend"
"you don't find it weird" he asked.
"of course not. all friends kiss" i leaned down and kissed him gently then i pulled away. "happy?"
"no. you kiss like a lesbian" he said. i hit him with a pillow and we laughed.

"im tired" he pouted.
"c'mon" i gestured for him to sit next to me. he climbed beside me and leaned on my side. i gave him a hug.
"i love you okay?" i said.
"i love you too sis" he smiled.
"i still remember the day we met" i grinned.
"best day of my life"