darling | brendon urie | sequel to "strawberries"

44: "it is all good"

"you're still grounded" brendon teased as i looked out of the window. i scoffed and sat down at the table.
"whens sarah gonna be home?" i asked. brendon put his coffee on the table. "tomorrow evening. she's got the perfect dress. man i cant wait to see it" he smiled.
"hey. remember when you told me you thought you'd be dead by 27?" i asked. he nodded tensely. "well you're not dead so...well done. im proud of you" i said quietly.
a smile grew on his face. "thanks"

we ate up our breakfast and he talked about the collab with taylor. they're performing at the bbma's together so thats awesome!
"sooo...hows your boyfriend?" he teased me.
"he is not my boyfriend! yet" i giggled.
"i cant believe you like him"
"i know. its weird" i agreed. "i never thought this would happen"
"well you're not in a bad mindset and you found yourself. so yknow its all good"
"yeah - it is all good" i agreed.

i went to my room a few minuets later and did my homework and listened to music. then i did a lil instagram q&a:

so you're bisexual?
yus but gorls are l superior when it comes to me dating but guys are cool ig😔😔

thoughts on ME! ?
BITCHHSSJ OKAY I WASNT A FAN OF TAYLOR BEFORE BUT IM BECOMING A HARDCORE STAN BC THAT SHIT WAS AMAZING SJ IM SO PROUD OF BRENDON FUCKFJFK AND TAYLOR WTF i never gave her a listen bur WTF IM IN LOVE WITH HER

why did you and jessica break up?
i dont even remember

how are you?
im actually doing pretty good! :)

favourite song of pretty odd?
when the day met the night 🥺

how many countries have you been to?
3?? america, tokyo and spain

can you sing??
LMFAO I CANT EVEN TALK

i ship you and justin
you're an intellectual

any concerts coming up?
me and justin have YUNGBLUD next week on my birthday and dodie in october.

how many people have you kissed?
four people ??

have you ever kissed a boy?
yup n he said i kiss like a lesbian😔

favourite thing about brendon?
he cries with me

"hey dyl, something came for you" brendon knocked on my open door and gave me a box. he helped me open it and inside was my stuff from jessicas house.
"oh" i was a bit disappointed.
"hey theres a note" brendon showed me.

dear dylan,

so it turns out i actually am going to a clinic in atlanta for three months for my depression. but i do want to explain some things to you.

1) when i saw sierra i saw that she was in so much pain inside. so i contacted her and got her to see a therapist. but she hated it. i would see her on weekends and help her. then i fell for her while i was still in love with you. you have brendon and justin and molly. she had no one. so i lied to you to prevent hurting you but then ofc you saw me.

2) i know you like justin. and its okay.

take care. i love you - jessica

"i still dont like her" i said bluntly