darling | brendon urie | sequel to "strawberries"

32: "please give me a second chance"

"that was draining" i sighed as we got into the car. i wiped my tears away as brendon gave me the aux.
"it was. but you got through it"

i just spilled so much personal shit to brendon and molly about my past life and it was very emotional. molly already knew actually but...you get me. brendon was in tears by the end but i got it out after years of holding it in. i was an emotional wreck.

"im really proud of you" he said before he started driving. i closed my eyes and listened to billie eilish's voice. it felt good to let it all out. and now i could go home, have a nap then do something productive. we got home and i went to wash my face. then i headed to bed.

i woke up to see my ex girlfriend sitting by my bed quietly.
"what do you want?" i asked. she sighed.
"i...wanna talk to you" she said.

i sat up. "talk"

"i feel awful about what happened. i lied to you. in such an awful way. you told me how badly sierra effected you and here i am moving to her? that was so horrible. dylan, i am so sorry. i miss you so much and i feel terrible. please...just...give me a second chance"
i sighed. "look...im not in a good state of mind. heck, im in a really bad place. i can't date anyone till im mentally stable" i realised i was oversharing. "i accept your apology. and im glad you saw your wrongs. but you fucked up and i cant go back to you"

"im here if you need me" she kissed my lips gently then hugged me. "always here"
i heard a sob leave her mouth as she walked out of the room. i felt awful. but this was for me.