darling | brendon urie | sequel to "strawberries"

8: "you're a disgusting child"

tw homophobia
also it may be a liTtle sexual

its been a month since i last saw brendon and my friends. things were terrible.

my anxiety had worsened and my dad refused to allow me to get medication and therapy. my new school wasn't too bad. lots of people tried befriending me but i was too scared. a few people invite me to hang out with them daily. i wouldn't go over as i felt bad but they'd come to me which i appreciated. but i was either crying or having panic attacks. some panic! at the disco fans noticed me and would check on me and ask whats going on but i never spoke.

the guidance councillor was concerned about me and spoke to my dad.
"she's fine. she just wants attention" he said. oh and he took my phone away but this girl im my class, bethany, let me use her phone to post something. i just took a photo of her and captioned it

@dylanurie: oKay so i wont be on social media ever again bc my 'dad' took my phone away. please be nice to brendon i miss him :( btw this is bethany shes very sweet

everything sucked but i stole some money from him and called jessica from the payphone.
"jessica. its me" i said.
"oh my god baby! how are you?"
"not so good. i havent got a phone but i...really need someone right now"
"give me your address"
i got home to see my dad wasn't home. i tidied my room and heard the doorbell ring. i ran to get it and opened the door to see her - my girlfriend.
she pulled me into a kiss and closed the door. we pulled away breathlessly.
"i need you" i whispered.
"im right here" she pulled me up the stairs and into my room.

our lips locked once again and my sweater came off revealing my vest. her tongue slid my bottom lip and begged to be let in. i opened and our tongues danced as her t shirt fell onto the floor. her lips moved to my neck and soon left love bites above my chest making me moan softly. i felt myself become wetter. she was about to unclasp my bra when my door opened.

my dads eyes filled with anger as he saw my girlfriend on top of me, our tops off.
"what the fuck is going on?"
did i mention that he was homophobic? i couldn't speak. jessica was in shock too.
"so you're a lesbian-slur?" he spat. i shook my head. i cant even write what he said...i was terrified and hurt.
"oh yes you are. you and this girl" he gave a death glare to jessica who was holding me, putting her sweater on me.
"i want you out. you're a disgusting child. how dare you do this under my roof!" his hand came in contact with my cheek. tears filled my eyes. i knew a panic attack was coming on. i darted out of the room as fast as i could.
"dylan!"

i ran down the road and a car honked at me. i fell on the floor, sobbing. i recognised that tesla.
"oh my god, dylan?" it was brendon.