Roller Coaster

RC --- Chapter THIRTY-NINE

People cry not because they’re weak. It’s because they’ve been strong for too long. --- Anonymous

January 8, Wednesday

8:45 PM

Azotea Towers

Can I officially proclaim this day as my happiest so far? I’ve been awake for a few minutes but I chose to lie on bed with the man who had undoubtedly captured my heart.

Waking up burrowed in Miguel’s body, his legs tangled on mine, his arms constricting my chest felt so surreal. I shuddered on the thought of having surrendered myself completely. Things happened so fast yet regret never crossed my mind.

I delicately disentangled myself from his not so loose hold and entered the bathroom. In the first place, it was the urge of my bladder that cut my dreamy slumber.

The moment I stepped out, I heard a faint familiar tone. Realizing it was from the outside, I grabbed a robe and went out of Miguel’s bedroom glancing back once to make sure he was still asleep. He was.

The sound became more audible and soon I recognized it as my ring tone. I went straight to the living room and searched for my purse taking the phone out instantly.

“Hello…” My mood plummeted down fast as William’s words flashed back and the anger temporarily hidden recurred.

“How is my cupcake?” With his tone, I was a hundred percent sure William had told him about our earlier conversation.

“Stop the façade Dad.” I spattered sourly. “I know why you’re calling.”

There was a moment of silence before I heard his sigh then his surprisingly stern voice. “Look Adrianna, I did it for your own good. Carlo is a very nice man. Responsible and trustworthy. Trust me I’ve proven it.”

“I bet you had.”

“My only mistake was not telling you. I did plan to but it got postponed until it got sidetracked.”

I’ve felt the ascent of fury and pain jamming my body as my chest tightened. “Are you even thinking rationally? Did it ever cross your mind to get my permission?” I started in a much controlled voice but eventually lose it in the end. “I am the only one who holds my future!! You have no right over me! You have no right over my life!!”

“I am your father!” It was the first time my Dad raised his voice on me but I was too angry to even care.

“Father?! When I was ten years old you probably were but not three years ago.” I stopped and breathed deeply fighting the surge of the old pain. “Three years ago I had no one. I was with no mother, my brother left me permanently and you know what, I realized I had no father too.”

“Cupcake…”

“I stumbled. I fell. Loneliness and grief drowned my once happy heart. I needed a strong pillar. I needed my father but he was in a world of his own. A world I sadly wasn’t part of.”

“Cupcake we’ve talked about this. You had been and will always be a part of my world.”

I laughed bitterly at his words as my hands wiped the fallen tears. “Why is it that every time I was near forgiving you, things like this happen? It makes me despise you all over.”

“Cupcake…” He was begging for understanding. “I’m sorry… please… I’ll talk to Carlo. We will end the agreement.”